Tales of Unfortunate Events

2007-01-13T04:21:00.000+08:00

Hello... Good Morning...Its Pork in the morning... Had a great movie in awhile now... went all the way to cennileisure with Siwei, Honglee, Laiping and Peiqin.. wanted to watch "The Victim" but only realised it was sold out, so decided to watch blood diamond.

It was fantastic , so realistic , so true , so real.. its about illegal tradings with diamonds coming from Africa where Locals from africa are forced to dig out diamonds . Bascially its a new type of diamond called "blood diamond" , pinkish looking making it a new stone in the black market to sell. Its believed that the blood diamond is called blood diamond because of the blood that have been shed through killings have created this diamond. A small fragment of it will cause u great fortune. Now that a egg-size diamond have be discovered , alot of people wanting their hands on it for a great deal of money, including the government soldiers and foreign buyers. Locals have a gang named "R.U.F" , they are a group of rebels that used diamonds to sell to foreigners which provides them with Arms that they used to kill goverment soldiers. And the R.U.F will go all means by exterminating village by village to get people to dig out diamonds and join them in their forces in resisting the Goverment soldiers.Many are killed , childrens are made soldiers,brainwashed and women getting raped. I must say Women are the main culprit of diamonds. HAHA

Anyway its just the starting plot of the show. The whole show is really Good I must say, the best in a long time. Glad that i watched the show.You guys should watch it! Kinda sad ending though.
=)

2007-01-10T21:05:00.000+08:00

Alright alright...Ladiesss! I'm BACK! its been how long since i've not been blogging and you pretties out there have not been reading my blog? Missed me eh? Haha! hmm..Whats there to start ? hmmm...OH ! YEAH!! HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR!! AND MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS!! well..though this year hasnt been a good year for me, i've still celebrated last year's christmas happily and New Year stupidly. During christmas , everyone came to my house and partied...we'd Steamboat and drinking session...well...in the end got scolded by my parents saying people spend money on alcohols , i payed my life drinking with them..ha...indeed i was drinking alot...haha...but still i was making myself feel better after a few bad incidents.

Have you guys seen this new variety show? THE ARENA? well its about some debating between schools..HA and guess what?! LOYANG up against the mighty RAFFLES, And who won? The UNDERDOGS! *2 Thumbs Up Plus 2 Big Toe Up!* They have done well to humiliate the well-known better schools! See guys?! This is a good example for this saying " Dont Judge People By Just Appearances" haha..
And..... ARSENAL BEAT LIVERPOOL!! 3-1 For FA CUP and 6-3 For CARLING CUP!
!!! MAN AM I PROUD OF THEM!! haha...for those who plays DOTA(Warcraft) i will say we're the Best Agility Hero in the game! 3 Cheers for them!!

Wait, One thing about me now...I'm Crazy Over Amanda Bynes...GUYS!! Please let me know if you guys know any thing, news, movies about her alright? she's the type of girl i've been looking for..haha.. crazy, fun loving, funny, cute and all adjectives to describe her as a angel from heaven!! =) Man i just love her...haha...
well , if you guys really want to know my story that i've been writing till now? all i can say that i'm totally lost...I've no topics, ideas , anything to write about now..its just like my pen is dangling in the air just hoping that atleast gravity can pull it back on track..in short.. life hasnt been too good for me..haha..well been trying to change myself positively ... havent really see the effects yet but hopefully things will go well for me...This New Year is indeed something to look forward to... things like New Hope? New Goals? New Friends? New Relationships? hmm...talking about all these...basically i have NONE right now...haha...how pathetic...Now that everyday is back to the old routine way, school --> Home --> supper with friends --> sleep OR School --->Home--->Gym---> sleep. Well thats is it for me...and oh yeah! haha...i've been more health conscious these days , thanks to Yuhan, My Big Bro...and something to him though he wont be seeing this?
i'd pray to god that everything will go right for him this year. =)

How i wish everything will change for the better this year...I really want to go overseas. Its so STRESSED here... i really need to get out of here...clear my mind off everything...its so cramp, frustrating and stressful . hmm...guess its all the karma that i've been doing all these years...Guess i'm having my retribution . Ha...I want to change my lifestyle and everything !!! Its so Fucked up!!!! ARGH!
ANYONE! SAVE ME PLEASE!! =(

-_-...Bad mood already...i'm signing off! Kill me!! ARgh!

2006-05-07T17:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday ,Went out with zhenfoong to jurong point and eat her dinner..haha..its like been so long ever since i seen her or eat with her...so anyway we met up at the mac opposite her house..thinking of some places to eat..den i thought of jurong point cos can meet laiping also...=) so we headed there and i gave laiping a call, after some pester..he agreed and we met at jurong point eating..we went to bento box..a nice and expensive place to eat at..basket...lol...we ordered pasta and pizza and we shared. at that time everything was so nice because i felt so relaxed happily eating with the people i'm happy with...anyway as we're eating..that ah foong start telling alot of lame jokes..hahaha we all just kept on laughing non-stop until a uncle also interested in our jokes...so all of us had a nice time eating =) after that we went to coffee bean and slack..talked some corks and haha went home!
after that met up with TIMMY lol!! he sound so boy when someone called him that
lol! i cant take it la.. anyway we went to cennileisure to play pool..MAN it was shiok!WOoT! after that went home la..den he saked me to accompany him while he wash his car..i sat down on a pail..den i was thinking if only that was my car...and i am the one washing..for awhile there..Getting my licence and Car becomes my 1st Aim.. i could care less...i just wan my licence and car...so anyway i was free i helped to washed his car...after that went home sleep and wahla now i am awake...this is how i roughly spend my everyday life...lol

2006-05-04T01:33:00.000+08:00

yuP yUp YuP ...Back by popular demands..The GenE ShOW Is BAck!...yayaya...like duhz...hmm..actually wads there to update i've no idea...i've no good things to talk about...but too many bad things to talk about till i'm sick of it? lol Sigh...To start with, i've been thinking that all these while whatever i am complaining, talking about..are all craps.. to start with..they dun even mean a thing.

ugrh...forget about it..its nothing unusual to see something like that coming out from me. its already a everyday thing..hmmz...ha...there's something rather ironic, my TP date is on 6/06/2006!!! Oh my god! its that scary! the day where some people says that anti-christ will be revealed..i dont know how true is it..but its rather scary...satan number is also that...haha but on the other hand..in hokkien they say its good... 6 in hokkien means "luck" <-- thats exactly how to pronounce it...so it have a similar pronunciation with the work LUCK... Luck Luck Luck...brings good luck...well..i dont know which of this to believe but obviously i will choose to believe the positive one. I'm feeling so nervous and yet happy about it...i really wish and hope that i could pass in one attempt . i really wanna to have the right to sit on the driver's seat and travel around singapore without squeezing around with people. well...lets just hope that i could have a lenient Tp officer for my Test date. i really hope so and that day when i'm having my tp ...i hope that the person i care for will be there for me...=)

i'm giving up hope on relationships...will there be someone to enlighten me?

2006-04-05T09:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went out with ah yun..haha..was a blast..! haha...we almost went walking around the whole of orchard...and definately our legs are wobbly..haha... met her in the early afternoon to get her hair dyed...Luckily she likes it.....if not i would noe how to face her...haha...well..we had lots of fun today...she kept on mispronouncing words haha...example, stussy she called its stassy...hahaha!!! not only mispronouncing...she changed words too! haha..she's finally a real prata lady! haha...wet wet wild...GUYS that's definately a new leisure lagoon! hahaha..BE sure to go there...its so much better then wild wild wet! =P
haha..she's still the same la...cant cross the road...and almost got us killed by a taxi...haha...today ...went to tried some spectacles on her..hmm..wad can i say...Her face is small...too small..have to pump in some fats into her! haha...went to eat sakae sushi during half-time of her shopping spree today...haha..SHE ATE LOTS OF PRAWNS! and i mean ALOT hahaha....her new nick name is Prawn Woman! haha...well..basically we ate till i find it hard to move about..haha...we didnt thought that yesterday was weekdays and we had "STUDENT" promos...-_-'' wth?! lol...haha...have to show the waiteress our pass..i feel like a 16 yr old ! UGRH..haha..anyway...yah! ithought her somethings about clothes and fashion too!! haha...cant believe it eh"? lol...haha...anyway...today we walked alot la...looking for her crystal heels..till my eyes got blurred...and finally a miracle of light showed when we went walking in marina square...the ONLY U.R.S that have heels to her liking..haha...anyway she know where to go to the next time..haha..hmm...we were like two idiots waiting at the bus-stop when we're waiting to go home...OMG...we waited like fo half an hour? and finally came to realise that the last bus was at 7.30 when we're there like at 9 ..-_-'' anyway yeah tats how is it...haha...sent her home...and managed to beg for a bag from her to carry my optical solution home..-__-'' haha...that girl was real funny today...haha...yeah...so anyway thats how it is...:)

2006-04-03T02:08:00.000+08:00

haha...You guys know what? I'm really amazed by the people who are so hardoworking and consistently updating their blogs everyday..every week..haha...dont they ever feel tired updating everyday's life? as for me...i'm beginning to feel it as a task instead of a natural habit to write down everything that happened today.
hmm..just had coffee earlier on..i think i shouldnt drink coffee too often...makes on think otherwise..well nothing much had happened ... still been working at liquid kitchen..haha...i tried a saturday once...haha..its really really tiring.. cant believe how Yongsheng, Becky Joanna and Nicholas are able to handle the crowd...its practically oncoming...non-stop...the cutlerys are always short of...the food are always not on time.. the Menu's especially are always needed...and i have to know what desserts, food, beverages that we dont have for the day... and when suddenly a dessert or main course we dont have...i'd to apologise to the customers and in the end being given a face...well...its understandable...even if its was me...i always will be unhappy..what can i say? we're shorthanded and not experienced enough...we always face the problem of not being able to handle all customer's needs...and i always felt bad about it...and bringing troubles to Yongsheng or nicholas..i dont understand why i cant perform myself well infront of nicholas... i always make blunders and mistakes infront of him..and i always gabra infront of him...i guess its no wonder he doesnt have a good impression of me...Hmm...anyway...having my pay slip on thursday...finally the first pay after so long...i have to recoup the losses i made this month...I spent too much...too much on everything...clubbing..eating...movies...buying stuffs...i have to restrict myself the coming month..ha...this month is april...APRIL'S FOOLS DAY...who's the Fool? haha..i haven start to Fool anyone yet...i guess there are none for me to fool too...everyone's so busy with their stuffs...my closest pals...they are either being busy with they Gf's or NS and their own stuffs... i guess its always me who's taking the friendship thing too seriously...haha...HURHUR...I must not take it too seriously from now on...MUST learn to REJECT!! haha...as not everyone is thinking the way i am...i cannot assume everything will be the way i thought...i guess i'm still not able to handle loneliness...Let alone relationships...haha...i think i know nuts about it now...i felt like a stranger to it... how to handle..how start...how to enhance it..haha...i guess i dont understand girls in the first place...haha...i'm a lousy guy maybe to begin with...haha...ugrh! its always the case isnt it? for those who know me that is...haha...
what other things could make me feel better? wad things are easy and able to spend time without feeling stupid? haha...the people i wanna go out and chill out with are always doing something..hmmz...i think the coffee effects are back...haha...i am splurting nonsense again....duhhzz..-_-'' anyway... i still wanna say Siwei Bro...Do what u wanna do about it..dun let urself so down...Stand up again and be urself...AS for Laiping...yeah...do ur things...improve ur relationship with tay ! =) i will know what to do!

LAST BUT NOT ALL.... I WANNA CLUB! and THIS FRIDAY IS THE DAY I CLUB! M.O.S!!! With my COusiN!! WOOT!! I CANT WaIT TILL THAT DAY!!! HIp HIp HOOraY!!!=0!!!

2006-03-25T00:48:00.000+08:00

haha...well, well, well....Looks who's back? haha...i am back again...Because someone have been scolding me for being a lazy ass not updating my blog...hahaha...Hmmz...wads there to update about myself? haha...i'm still me...still so down..still wondering whats really wrong with me...am i really that bad... haha...i never seem to get satisfied with myself..well...now i am currently working in a Pub Restaurant...called Liquid Kitchen...Not bad a place...Nice ambience...Can watch soccer and drink at the same time..one of the best place to talk cock with friends and family...yeah...hmmm...There's alot of things in my mind right now..Things i dont know myself.. Things i dont know how to answer..Things i dont know how to work on...sometimes I really wish to have answer to somethings but i dont...well..thats life... Life which have no leads nor meanings in it..aha..worst of it...u've to find it urself...

Sometimes...Its really tiring to deceive people urself ...putting up with a happy face , with no problems...no worries..and just keep everything to urself...And sometimes you really just wish that someone could really know that you're just faking...and talk to you ...care bout u..haha...I"M A GIRL ! damnedz...requesting something like a girl...aint man isn't it =x...

Foong haha...sorry man! u ask me update and i give u something Negative...haha...i aint living a happy and blissful life like u're now...hahahaha...but! ONE happy news ...I am able to go to Yr 2 in my NYP ..hahaha....tats something great able to see my school friends once again...Khoi...Jeremy..JIahao...Many more la...hahaha
hmm....its actually something good...to see through ur testimonials when u're bored...though testimonial may be white lies...but atleast it could really warms up ur hearts....hahaha..hmm...

I just wanna Confine myself into a room and shut myself from outside world! argH! BUt i'm Aint a guy Which can Tolerate Loneliness! This Just SuCKs!!! ARGH!!!! hahaaha...WHo's Able to Save me?! hahaha

2006-02-13T00:34:00.000+08:00

Yo...I'm Back Once again ..with some friends of mine ,asking me to update my blog and i am here to write about my uninteresting,lonely,sorry life. hahaha.. just now when i was about to sign in to my blog...guess what? i forgotten about my usename and password...ok...from that i know how long have i not updated my blog and how lazy i've been. haha
anyway...i'm aint gonna update from where i stopped the previous time cos its gonna be really troublesome... so gonna let people know how i am doing now...haha..well guys! i'm on the verge on falling into a pit full of snakes and i'm lost. In a way...i've no motivation , no goals nor aim to work towards to...anyway thats me..i'm always lost whenever i lost something in me...lol!! why is that so?? not gonna say why...its something too personal that even me ,myself also have no idea why....yeah...its that complicated...haha!
just came back from fullerton eating with my aunt,cousin and her bf...haha...man, we felt like a small family..enjoyed ourselves eating and talking...the whole meal cost about 200 plus...man..they really know when to "cut out vege -head" lol! while i was eating and talking...my heart was feeling kinda guilty as my common test is next week and exams are the week after this...and i'm still aint feeling a thing! i'm that hopeless....i've lost total interest in studies...i feel like whatever i do now is meaningless ...just to get that paper and let my parents feel safe ...i dont know why...haha...anyway...its like that yesterday my bro(siwei) and i got punk'd by meiluan..not gonna say why too hhahah its too shameful anyway we in the end went to buy tickets for a movie... den after that while waiting for the show to start...we sat at coffee bean talking and crapping till laiping and anita came and join us...so we were talking about some stuffs over work ,studies and stuffs...till siwei and i didnt wanna watch the movie anymore...haha there we go...wasted 10 dollars for nothing...hahaha..
life is once boring again..its so like that...sigh...ive nothing to fight for...no moral no mood for any shit...people just dun appreciate me...when they needed me,they look for me...and never thought of me...i am just a play doll when they needed someone..when will i ever be loook up upon!? hahaha...yeah , me complaining once again...its so crappy!!! grrr..lol!!
sigh..am i really destined to be this way? hahaha....actually from the start till now..i dont really have a clue of what i've typed...its just some rubbished being collected in my head...haha ugrh....not gonna waste anymore time here...tmr got stupid lessons in the morning..0.o''

anyway some nice song to intro to u guys...

jay chow - shan hu hai
jay chow - lang man shou ji
ryan cabera - true

enjoy!

2006-01-05T20:15:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh....i'm here once again on this lonely ground blogging this pathetic and unpopular blog...haha...its kinda true anyway..woah woah! heh! wad a negative comment for a brand new start of the year...haha but before i go into new year...gonna compo about wad i did last year..
Ha...how am i gonna start something last year..hmmz..ok...well...lets talk about christmas...haha...WHAT A LONELY and BORING christmas i'd this year..haha...well..its siwei's booking out day...so what we planned was a outing on christmas..so...Laipng,Peiqin,Siwei,Olivine,Olivine's friend and i went to orchard to meet up...however our original plan of the outing was to go to fisherman and eat and drink..but all of them says its far so changed of plans...WE began wandering around like liveless ghost who just lost themselves in the open...lol..anyway siwei got olie a special present and i got something for amily..haha..her present went through some difficulties before it becomes a suprise for her ok!? lol..anyway...meeting her up was a short moment just passing her the present talk for a another short moment then...DISMISSED! haha...anyway i managed to introduce amily to my group of friends...especially siwei...haha they had some commotion going on there ...anyway its nothing just some fun...so..after amily left...the group and i went to NYPD(aiyah some restaurant outside heeren la..) to makan..haha..though everything there was nice , the price and air there are lousy...BOUND TO DO SOME UPGRADINGS! haha..so...after dinner which was only 10-11 plus...EVERYONE's TIRED! OMFG! so...everyone left...leaving peiqin , laiping and me ...SO we GO westmall WaTCH movie! OMG! i cant believe it....wad a lonely christmas...sigh.

anyway something recent...NEW YEAR!! haha YEAH!! how i celebrated? ha..dun ask...u'll sure laugh ur pants and panties off..-_-..i celebrated with one person.. and... now... guess who that person is? i am sure u'll be very suprised! haha..u cant imagine i actually spent it him with..haha u know its who? ITS MY BROTHER siwei!!! hahahahaha but ...It shouldnt be so LITTLE people celebrating it with us..there should 2 more girls...but they PS us...its the two big princesses, Cindy and Meiluan...anyway..wont blame them..they have their own things to do..-_-'' anyway... what can two big guys do on christmas? Siwei have to save up money...i dont have money to spend..so..the easiest thing to spend time was...to watch movie! haha...we watched narnia...wad a movie...it was nice...yeah.. so...yeah...haha..the funny part was... when the clock striked twelve... hahaha outside the cinema we heard loud bangs from the fireworks..haha...soon we begin to see people in flocks! haha running out of the cinema wanting to catch a glimpse of the firework...siwei asked me...u wanna watch the movie or the fireworks? i say i want to watch both leh how? aiyah! last go watch fireworks la..haha so become one of the black birds who ran away missing the last LAST part of the movie and see the fireworks..haha..damnedz! was it amazing! the fireworks were spectacular! hahaha..but sad case was...there were trees blocking our view..haha..siwei began to tell me how funny is it for 2 guys to spend new year together..haha...i thought so too...whats more we wore the same colour of shirts and jeans..haha...wad brotherly fate we had...lol! den we began to go home with the flock of people till we get a taxi home..haha...well...atleast that how we spend new year and christmas...kinda lame isnt it? lol...

sigh....today...its the worst worst day of the new year i had...still thinking how "lucky" is it for the year of the rabbit...melvin told me...this year..is a lucky year for the rabbit and last year was the "suay"year for the rabbits..-_- well...it looks the same to me...with no difference...haha...lady luck still refuses to come to my side...anyway..i did something so bad..that it made me felt so guilty that i have to get to it immediately...skipping sch lectures...i lost my friends and mine semestral project...i explained to the semestral teacher wad happened..and luckily she manage to extend the deadline for me..thank god! -_-...atleast that was the consolation that god gave me this year...sigh...With common test coming up next week and semestral project tied tightly at my both hands ...i am going to wear out! losing motivation and interest in sch...this is really not my type of course...but still i have to bite and endure everything through...

so lets just hope that everything will turn right for me this year! please!! =(!!

2005-12-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

F I N A L L Y... i am back in blogging...haha...after so so long...MIssed me do u!? lolz...i noe i noe...thanks thanks...ahhaa...anyway....speaking the truth...nothing much amusing happened during the break ...EXCEPT...sadly...my big bro...he's going to NS...manz...how unbearable is it for him to leave us...he's the joker and stuntman of our group..the last disciple of jackie chan man...now he is all ready to go report to GUARDS! woot!! my Bro is gonna bring back GLORY to singapore..haha...Yesterday SENTOSA was A bIG BIG blASt!! HAHHA...the BRothers , Chong Hong, Siwei(big bro) , peiqin, laiping! meiluan!!ducky!!cindy!!anita!! siwei's FRIEND...lol!! went there to HAVOCK! haha...man! we really did enjoy ourself there man...got to know some vietnamese people there...haha! the guys there are very fast...i think they are as light as paper.. but really...good times are very fast ....and they will become memories of the past...but these are the times i will always treasure with my bunch of friends and group...cos i treasure them with the bottom of my heart!! ;) hahaha...starting to feel emotional ..-__-'' anyway in sentosa we played some stupid games and do some stupid forfeits...haha...theres one very disgusting and gross that i will not mention...it concerns a persons reputation and pride..haha!!! but anyway everything was just a joke...all for fun...haha...after sentosa...the group went to bkt timah to eat....meet up with Mrs Fish(siyun) and BECCA(dunno why call becca also, rebecca) to eat...haha...eat till "BA BA"(hokkien for FULL) hahha...after the everything...we felt that the night is still as young as infant we went for pOolING! haha...i opened a table with siwei ..den the funniest part of the game...siyun and rebecca continued for us..haha...rebecca take over me and siyun after siwei..haha..seeing them play is considered a pleasure that will always keep ur mouth open.haha...!! well..becca played well...and well...siyun...always room for improvement...NOT SAYING THAT I AM GOOD...( infact i kinda suck) also got rooms for improvement...haha...den after awhile..peiqin started screaming GOAL!!! PETER CROUCH!!! hahah!!! cos he was watching soccer in the shop..haha...he was overly excited and HIGH haha!! his instinct for liverpool is always right..hahha...truly a liverpool fan..haha! ;) after pool...its time to go back to home...haha..i am still in the mood for play but tired...so i went to laiping's house for PS...hahha..guess wad...after bathing in his house...den went to his room, sit down on his bed for 5 mins staring at that tv...*POOF* off i close my eyes...hahaa...i am exhausted...haha...but its all well worth it...haha!! man i love my group..really hope we wont get seperated! ;)

PS: Brother Sze, Remeber to look for us after u book out OK!?! if not i cut ur DICKIE...

haha...GUys....i am tired now...10.37 pm...gonna sleep!! haha NIGHTZ

2005-11-16T21:39:00.000+08:00

Yo! i'm back...LonG time NO see...haha...tell u a secret why i didnt update...Cos..i am lazy! hahaha....no one reads this anyway..haha!! ;p....this past few days...wad have been going on..haha..i worked!! i worked in crown prince hotel!! haha...as a Banquet waiter..haha...with Peiqin, meiluan and Laiping! hahaha..we had fun..a new experience as a banquet waiter....tell u something..that person who held their wedding there are very budget! hahaha...place so small even us waiter have problem walking around , dun need to say serving people...its totally CRAMP! hahha...well...it was tiring...meeting new people there..was fun...;) i was wondering haha tat was the first time i worked with all of them...haha..well..we did had fun...people there treated us good...so it was ok...hmm...wad else...hmmz..oh yeah!! TODAY! hahaha...found Ah FOonG walking back home..so decided to ka jiao her...phoned her...asked her to turn back..haha but she dun wan....wad happen u can go to her blog and see..haha...it was a joke ! anyway...so long no see her...still the same...PRETTY LA...haha...if i say bad things...she gonna make me spell the word "D I E" so have to protect my small life...hahaha...anyway chilled down at macdonalds...haha wad a place to talk...anyway...both of us were pissed off by the FUCKING WEATHER today...IT^'s *&!@^#!@&^#@! HOTTT....yeah..haha....but i was glad to see her...and oh yeah! my new time-table for my semester TOTALLY sucked! i hate it ! i cant understand why! hahaha it is HORRIBLE...WTF ...stupid sch...yeah...cant take out any spirit in going to sch ..haha...anyway... will be going to HONGKONG this coming friday...haha...part of me is kinda lazy to go...but the other part of me is asking me to go...1st of all..i duno why i am felt attached to my home...and i am afriad i cant catch up with my work.. the other part of my wants me to play...haha...i've put myself into a dilemma....wad a joke...i am jus being me again...i am bored...ALONE...hahaha

GONE!

2005-10-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since i ever updated....hmmz...a lot of happened since then...ha..well...i'd been to cruise...Virgo StarCruise..haha..with my family and my grandparents....haha...its been awhile ever since we went out as a family...though everything there was rather boring and nothing there really interests me...its also a good thing to spend time with ur family...especially with my grandparents..haha..though its quite hard to handle at times..but i really still love spending time with them...they are the ones who looked after me since i am a child till now when i am so big..they are the people i respected the most...i will never forget them...:) anyway...we went to every part of the ship...haha...went to the pub...restuarnts...Lido theater.....casino...everywhere on the ship...ahaha...its still bore me out...only the view of the sea...breeze of the sea...the sun...makes me stop all my thoughts and let me relaxed...its a moment of relaxation that its really easy to get ...anyway...i went to cruise with my family..haha..:) the other thing that happen to me is...My birthday!! haha...though its not very happening..but i still wanna thank my brothers who never forget my birthday...and all those remembered mine too! haha...they gave me a small suprise in my room...just when i thought no one else is coming to my house...and i was playing game with peiqin and laiping in the room...siwei suddenly came in with the cake in his hand..ahaha..i was stunned for a moment...my jaw was on the ground with my mind went blank..haha...i was really happy with my brothers along with me...haha..i thought i am gonna have a lonely birthday like last time...haha...oh yeah...my dad bought me an very expensive watch..GUESS ! $169 haha...i love it! ;) and my mom? she sponsor my driving lessons! haha....just what i want! i love it! hahaha....and on my birthday...my cousin accompanied me to BBDC to enrole in the driving lessons , after that we went to watch skeleton key...and had sake sushi! haha..i LOVE my cousin HAN EE LING!! haha...without her..i couldnt imagine how boring can my birthday be...haha..but still there all those who sent me sms-es to greet me..haha...they also put up a smile on my face..haha...atleast i am still remembered...:) actually...i feel that i am considered to be a very lucky person to have all these people by my side ... haha ...i am feeling contented for once...haha
just finish watching a drama series..."Wang zhi Bian Qing Wua AKA frog prince" haha...its quite a nice show...but in all i wanna say...happy endings are to be fought for...not to be waited upon..how i wish i can fight for that person , to work hard for that person and not expecting anything in return..something doing it willingly just for that person...haha...i have lost that feeling so long ago..haha...i'm a sentimental , emotional , bashful person...haha, i still wish for a person to work hard for too..haha...THOUGH i am a guy....hahahaha!!

Some nice SONGs to intro to u guys!!

183 club - zhen ai
183 club - call my name
183 club - mi hun ji

ENJOY!

2005-10-17T15:32:00.000+08:00

WooT! what a day!...came back this morning at 5 plus...man! am i tired! :S haha..but its hell of a fun yst night...went all the way to pasir ris to drink and enjoy the breeze of the sea..with nice lightings...and soothing musics..! its the best place for relaxation...and a perfect place for the lost and heart brokens...hahaah!
Yst went there with Amily and 2 of her friends...like what she say...they are friendly...;) for the 1st and 2nd hour, we were like quite awkward..haha..cos i am a new guy and they cant talk much..with a new guy around...but slowly...we began to talk and drink...haha...the more we drink the more we talk..haha..i guess i drank the most..haha..we ordered peach and strawberry coolants...and red wine..haha...woot! we drank like fun..haha...we talked about lots of tings last new..about relationships..guys and girls..ghosts...death...stupid things...hahaa..all were having fun chatting..but i guess i also talked alot cos i drank quite a bit..haha..i will get talkative if i get tipsy..lol..so from..9 plus till 4plus in the morning..we were dere sitting..and chatting..its like as if we were all good friends...haha..its fun indeed..but good and nice things dun last i guess...so went home after everything...haha..;) though everything was quite ex for me..but i really enjoyed myself there... if got chance..will go there again and bring some of my friends there too..;)

2005-10-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

starting of the week...dead as a rat...lazy as a pig...restless like a ghost...tired from everything...yes...it is the feeling of lost...coming back to me...with no purpose, no meaning...its time to spend the week like this again...i wish i could just fly away...to somewhere which really belongs to me...wad else can i do...finding work alone is boring...staying at home is even boring...going out and putting up a front is a total torture...alone once again...wedsnesday, Laiping is coming to meet me... that put a smile for me..ha....long time ever since brother came...i feel so bored and scared now...now there's two things up in my mind...my results, and that person.. ahhh...so stupid aint i? i just wish i can pass my tests...thats all i ask for...please please please!! i just wanna pass! and go to the next semester preacefully....out of poly as soon as possible...go into army... sigh....felt so limited with friends and no one to lie on..lol!! (sissy) ...ok .í'm bored..lolz...HOPE AND WISH ME ALL THE BEST TOMORROW MORNING WHEN I CHECK MY RESULTS!! PLEASE!! GOD!! BLESS ME!!! :)

2005-10-09T23:11:00.000+08:00

Now...gonna talk about the week...i personally feel ...I feel that God, have been treating me very good... why? this week...he didnt leave me alone....i know he knows that i am lonely this week.. which is why..he sent someone to keep me company...going out with that person..is indeed a very happy thing that have happen to me during these few weeks...i can say...i really enjoy that person company...its like going back to the good old days i once had before...which is already lost for a very long time...i would never forget the time i spend my time with the person this week...
i took a wrong bus this time... haha...its a very funny thing...lolz...i want to go to a place...but still we took the wrong bus...and we in the end have to take a cab to that place...its a really funny thing...lol...that person very afraid of hot...a little bit of heat that person will keep on complaining that its very hot...haha...that person like green..white..blue..black..pink....those main colours...that person also like to shave off wooden pricks thats out of the chopsticks whenever we eat...that person dont like people to keep on boasting about oneself...whenever that person is bored...that person will look away and keep quiet..that person nose is extremely sensitive..that person will start rubbing its nose when that person nose got sensitive...
anyway...all its just a wonderful week God gave me...i really wanna thank him from the buttom of my heart...
Thank You God...

just hope.. more of such weeks can be given to me... ...

2005-10-04T23:57:00.000+08:00

Wooh!! ;)!! Today's a Happy day...didnt waste my time today at aLL! not a single min wasted...hmmz..=p haha...today...went to causeway point with Anthea..lolz..;) watched the red shoe! hmmz...its a movie i guess u guys can try catching..lolz not bad a movie...quite intense and scary..man! i felt like a sissy watching with her...she felt nothing! and i meany nothing! -_-" well..she did tried to scare me and i did try to do that to her..but nothing happened..haha! i can say her guts is BIG..-_-" she's got guts..haha...anyway...had fun today....finally shopping with someone :) felt really great today..hmmz...today went to causeway point...of course i wouldnt forget to look for my bro..man...is he in deep shit..sighz..all i can say...lady luck aint on his side man! Ping! wish i could give u some luck! ;) hmmz...i wont say what happen...its not really nice...after the movie and everything...went to pasa malam..lolz...we saw people playing the "try to catch softtoys game" haha...well...its quite fun but also quite a waste of money...if u wanna test if lady luck is on ur side? u might wanna try that game..lolz... hmmz...well...we stood down there for a couple of mins watching people play..haha..its funny...but after awhile she had to go..so..sent her to the interchange and went back home ...haha...
if u think thats all for today? lolz..u wrong..i went running with my dad in the night..lolz...first time...well...we really run and i felt that my stamina gotten better...;) happy...i dun really feel out of breath and tired..except for some tight muscles ..lolz..yeah...thats about it...i really enjoyed my day. ;) hope she does too..lolz..
As for bro...Bro! dun get too depressed i believe that lady will come back and return the money! ;) i believe there will be some nice people who have some good morals.!! thats all!
nightz!! ;)

2005-10-03T00:26:00.000+08:00

Ahhh...this is so YUANWANG!!... i cant believe this...Where the hell did Justice go to?! Giving Chelsea scoring like that!...YUCK..All Chelsea supporters are equally arrogant! Yuck....chelsea sucks!! =x!! anyway..have been lazy updating lately...but i went to catch the movie corpse bride...tell u guys something too...never watch that movie..i tell u..it sucks...everything sucks...i went there to sleep ... -_- imagine a guy like me who would be amused by everything?...slept in that show..so u can actually the boredemcity of that show..sigh..i am bored...really bored by the nothingness around me...the environmeny boreds me out...everything boreds me out...this really kinda sucks...which also means...my life sucks...haha...everythingsucks...i am going on cruise this month..so happy! ;) hope to relax there..i wana relax there man...leave everything out....and think of nothing but enjoying myself...

i am so lost....so so lost..

2005-09-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

Again and again , i felt left alone aside to a corner with no true friends except myself trying to forget the feeling of being looked up upon as a good friend. The philosophy of "brothers" in my life has died...why is really looking for a true friend ... a companion...a partner that difficult? With envious eyes i have , pictures of happy friends and brothers together makes me feel more that i am really alone... the feeling of anguish and nothingness slowly trying to eat me up...i felt nothing more to feed them...except my disappointment and questions of why.. Is really trying to find a person who can understand oneself that difficult? hmmz...maybe u can have a dozen of friends...but do the dozen of friends understand how u felt and think? ha...with envious feeling i have for all family who have elder brothers or sisters....be thankful for all u have.. atleast now i am really thankful that i have a wonderful cousin...though she is busy i am really happy atleast she will not forget me...and the bond is forever strong..
I will never be deceive again with the word brothers unless i know its genuine and sincere...
ah...fuck it...i never understand what and how does the world works..haha....i feel so stupid writing all these...atleast i thats how i feel...sigh...heck...moving forward is more important...friens...i have not much things to say about that..lol... Looking for a happier day...

once again! three cheers for FULL HOUSE!! HIP HIP HOORAY! HIP HIP HOORAY! HIP HIP HOORAY!! :)

standing third...(Full Metal Alchemist! )
second runner up!! ( Bleach!! )
first runner up( naruto! )

Reccomanding FUll house to all out there

as for animes....look at the runner ups and thirds...

2005-09-26T13:55:00.000+08:00

another day at home...but had fun yesterday...went to siwei's house to play basketball with laiping,peiqin and siwei....and other friends...hmmz...its like finally playing basketball after so long..everyone's so busy with their own things and no time for such things...so....yesterday was something to remember , the feeling of playing basketball den talking...den go coffee shop eat and talk again..haha...such pattern have been lost after so long...hmmz...yeah.. hmmz..anyway..had fun talking to laiping yesterday after playing basketball..haha....talked about some school stuffs and other matters..haha...i cant believe it ...today he is having test and yesterday he was playing basketball with us...i am really quite -_-"....but anyway its something quite normal..wad can u expect from someone who scores A's while sleeping in class during secondary school...Cant do well in poly? u are wrong..haha..never underestimate that Laiping ability to learn..haha...that Baba..haha...

never expect Full House , this koeran drama series to be so hot within my family and freinds....even laiping got the full house song...WOot!! Full house ROCKS!!
SONG HYE KYO!!!! WOOt!~:) she rock she rock she rock rock rock...haha....hmmz...so boring...gonna watch tv now..gonez...

2005-09-24T00:26:00.000+08:00

Another day has just passed...hmmz...so its just life...just the same routine once again..nothing much...hmmz...at home...watch tv...online...swim...nothing else...thats wad i almost do everyday...my life...my type of living..ha...i'm really getting bored..ahh...sigh...what to do..hmz...Peiqin came my house today..watched final fantasy 7 ...once again...no...i think i watched it 3 times..including today..haha...hmz..other then that we played winning eleven..stayed at home...nothing much either..its so normal....anyway...i just finish watching Full house with my dad again! haha...i still cant get enough of that show....its just too nice ....tooo nice...i love everything...the songs the plot...the actress..haha...

Once..there was two good friends...they did everything together...play together...talk to together...talked everything under the sun together...now one of the good friend have left..leaving the other by itself...letting it alone...doing everything independently...and now the other half have been wondering around feeling so lonely...feeling that friends do come and go...making it believed that there's no such things as forever friends...and now the other half finally understand how things works...have decided to accept wads there for him...and the other half now wants to thank the other half for teaching him such a valuable lesson...trust no one except oneself ... hahaha...interesting story? haha... quite meaningful i thought...hahah...

MOST POPULAR SONG...THE SONG THAT MUST BE DOWNLOADED !!

Full House OST - I think i love you.mp3 <---- Must download! best song ever! BE sure to download!; )

2005-09-22T23:07:00.000+08:00

Finally!! 3 cheers For me!!! ahhaa Exams are over!! they Are finally over!! Days of worrying...Days of panciking...burning of midnight oils! they are finally over! haha....today had my electrical principles...haha...its a subject i am quite confident of..haha....today...i manage to finish the whole entire paper within 45 mins...guess..i was the first to finish the paper in the whole entire hall...when i finish the paper i was like hmmz.....am i a little too fast..?! so instead of trying to be a hero and hand in the paper ...i double check everything...hmmz...and waited for another half an hour when i saw somebody leaving den i leave..if not i will be quite awkward...haha...funny thing is today the stupid security guard not there...stupid muthu...haha...heck that ...hmz...its the end of my exams and the start of my holidays...man..i am gonna get bored again..so sad...sigh..haha..

hmmz....i am gonna get myself some drama series to catch...sigh....i still LOVE FULL HOUSE!!haha....SONG HYE KYO!! ;) i love that bitch man! lolz

2005-09-19T23:00:00.000+08:00

Met up with ah foong today...had my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner...cos i dun feel like eating...haha...anyway..had my analogue electronic exam today...met up with melvin, tongming and khoi in sch early today...just to prepare for the exam...damnedz i was tired ok! wake up so early...if not for the exam i wont even care...grrz...a few more days and i can sleep like a log again!! ENDURE these few days! GOGO jiayou!! hmmz...anyway...luckily today's exam was manageable...i was able to do it at a comfortable pace...but only for the last question i was really stuck...didnt really know how to do...at the point when i was doing that question i was wondering to myself...i really dont know how to do that question...so should i just leave or just continue sitting around and enjoy the feeling of being watched by few stupid invigilators? argh!! Fook it...i rather go home den wasting my time in my sit...cos i really dont know how to do! so what for stay right? even an idiot would know its time to go when u really cant do a single thing...-_-'' anyway...i am happy enough for that exam...tomorrow's Computer Programming...hope i can do it like today...after tomorrow's exam its gonna be a easier pace for me to study...its not that i am really confident but i am quite confident with it...;) cos its basically like physics but a higher level! ;)

and yeah...i discovered to small lumps on my neck...at first when i first discovered it i was rather shocked and scared! i thought it was the bad symptoms of u know what...i am really afraid that it is..up till now i still dont know...have not consult the doctor yet...but my friend, melvin told me its nothing...because if the lumps are not painful when "squeezëd"or pressed then its ok...he say its like somehow like when u got "heaty" and not enough sleep u will have that....upon listening to that really make me felt relieved...i felt i'm back in my comfort zone..since last night till this morning i have been thinking of this...so scared...lol...anyway...i really hope its nothing big...think so la...i "fu da ming da" sure nothing de.. ;)

oh yeah...went back to school and see Ms Gopal...actually wanna see all the teachers but suay..all having meetings...maybe its just me and my luck...sighz..haha...living in the darkest hours of my life..haha...all was so shocked by my new hair colour...haha...AHBENG!! they say...haha...i was like...aiyo..its a new image mar...must be able to adapt to new changes right?! lolz...yeah...quite refreshing everytime i go back to sch..haha...but everytime the principals dun seem to welcome the old students...STUPID management..! they should really change the way of treating the old students...though we are not studying in Bukitview anymore ...we still once paid money to the sch and studied there! now we are gone...we are being treated like dirt...what a bad bad example...they should ought to change their stupid way of managing the school...anyway...i feel its a gone case with the new principal...she is being too lenient...i prefer so much the older days with Mr James Ong..though its abit scary...but everything was organised and disciplined...it look more like a school...Better than now...haha...

ok lar...enough of commenting..sleeping now...good night!! ;)

2005-09-15T23:32:00.000+08:00

argh!!!! stress i am so stress!!! so fucking stress!!! argH!!!! its killing me!! A Maths is killing me!argH!!!....tomorrow its the exam which determine my life and death for A maths in poly!! god!! please BLESS ME!!! i am really so screwed in making so midnight oil burns....sighz...i am so dead....i need to be fresh in my a maths!! argh!! i'm so worried...soo soo worried...

today...quickly came back to meet up my cousin to ask her to teach me a maths when i figure it out that i could no longer stay in sch to study..but atleast today went to school quite worth it..haha.. went there saw jia hao and diadora...but didnt really talk much until i wanted to borrow her exam papers to photocopy...haha...after photocopying...could no longer stay..cos all dunno..den cant ask jiahao..haha he too "busy" ah...haha...den went back home...wanted to ask the stupid khoi to accompany me go my house study...he dun wan...haha..so bo bian...went back home myself...and now i am studying like crazy....my brain is about to explode any min...damnedz...life is sure hard in poly...its not as easy as u think it is...yes...its blardee slack...lolz...aiyah..anyway...it still suck...

i am going...need to rest..tmr wake up and study while going to sch...night allz!

2005-09-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

I love song hye kyo!! hahaha!!
hahaha...hmmz...for a few days now...i am quite attached to that drama series...haha...the songs are equally attractive too..hmmz...i think maybe its because that i am rather in the mood for such songs i guess...hahaha...today went to Jurong point to study...paid zhenzhen to ask her teach me..hmmz..atleast i studied...if not coming back home equal listening to songs and not studying...everytime its like this..its rather quite irritating...wanna study but no motivation at all...so so pissed at myself...hm...friday its the exam already..i really hope i can get through that exam..and i can go to the next level... GOGO! JIA YOU! GOGO ! JIA YOU!!!

:)

ts

2005-09-14T02:13:00.000+08:00

its currently 2.13am now...i just finish watching the Full House drama series...finally a happy ending...its all i want ...to see in every story...though it will be boring to see one everyday...but to me...its all i wanted ....in my life...i also want a happy ending, a happy life....a interesting and meaningful story...a story which consists of all my family members....my friends...brothers....and her...how i wish i could have a story the same as them....a happy one...why is it so hard to find one these days...or is it only me? unable to find the things i want...i think the things which can help me relieve all the pain is music....
music is my best friend now..listening to music expresses my every feelings...sad...happy..angry...whatever...which is why...now music to me in my life is a very important thing...haha...guess what? i have a new ambition...i really want to go to korea for once...to experience how the people over there lives...i really hope to a korean myself...their language....culture....everything...it makes me feel like i am living in a very nice soothing place...with so many things able to happen everyday..ha...
everyday live on 2 bottles of alcohol is it enough? i could hardly feel the kick...i could hardly make myself drunk...i want to be in my own world of fantasy...its the only way i can find the life i want...everytime i have to fantasize my life the way i hope it would be....haha...is it kinda pathetic? thinking of stupid things..irrelevant to life...maybe thats wad i am..a very impractical person...i am the only who keeps on thinking of the impossible..and maybe which is why i am the only who always wanna fight against whats been "decided" ...i really wanna make things my way...which is why i always wanted to fight against thing thats opposing me...i wanna make my life a more happening and imaginary one...as irrealistic as possible...this world today is very real...everyone have a motive behind their back..its so scary to come of think about it...i dont want..i wanna live in a world whereby everyone can really rely on each other no need to worry about..haha...man...i feel like a girl..-_-" its so retard...haha...
i'm mentally tired now...i am really feeling lost...i dont know what i really want in life....i feel so meaningless...can anyone tell me whats my purpose and what are the things i should do?

The few things i know is

1) study for my future
2)be filial to my parents
3)take care of them when they are old
4)earn as much money as possible
5) give my parents a comfortable life

guess these are the few things...haha...yup...i think there will be no time for me...;) i think thats really the main prioties....anyway...i give up to life..;)
night to all...

2005-09-13T12:48:00.000+08:00

Guys always never tend to see a girl that treats him good , Girls also always never tend to see a guy treats her good... and always after so much hurdles ,conflicts and many obstacles then they realised that...and everytime when that happens...its always too late... and always when one party finally starts to realise that... the other party always have given up...but always given up broken-heartedly... why is it always this away? in another phrase.... Both guys and girls always start to regret only when things are unable to turn things around... why is it always this way?

feeling lonely...depressed is always my forte... no matter how much i try to show that i am a very strong person...a person who loves to win..sighz...i dunno...haha...i am a very fickle person...who's also very indecisive...haha...i think its true..i have long forgotten the feeling of being in love... and i am slowly being lazy to even go after the girl i like... but everytime seeing people holding hands...happily bickering around... all the small little things all couples do...ha..i think they dont know its a small kind of happiness they are having..

i am kinda lost now..haha...dont know what i am saying... ciaoz...

Anoth

2005-09-12T22:47:00.000+08:00

Another day of loneliness have gone..the feeling of loneliness has now being marked into me...i dont think i mind being alone or afraid of being alone anymore..now..i feel that there are lots of things to do alone...dont really need the companion of my friends or anything now..i just need a few friends i guess...anyway...i totally agree with what foong said to me yesterday...friends are just people we need along with our lifes...there isnt such things as forever friends. haha...those are just some childish quotes and phrases to be used on some naive idiots...hahas...yup...it is..the more i think of it, the more funnier it gets..ha...anyway...lets drop this topic...it really bore me out...

haha...thanks to tongming, i am able to laugh non-stop for forty-five mins...haha...that russell peters is really a genius of all comedians...haha...he is the one which is really to express himself in a very straight and funny way..haha..sometimes i think that talking to him, when u get poked by him and u still dunno...haha...wads more...i think when u are being poked by him..u are also laughing abt urself..haha...he is really a good comedian i can say...his english is Good...lolz...for those people who have a high level of sense of humour might be rolling on the floor and laughing already. anyway..if u really wanna know wads the video clip i am talking about..its this below...

http://www.sepiamutiny.com/sepia/archives/000481.html
click on the CLICK HERE! link...den u are able to download through bittorrent...
for those who doesnt have bittorrent? sorry i think u have to download bittorrent then download that file...;) sorry dudes!

haha...it feels kinda weird drinking all alone...last time, i have my friends to drink with me..now..fancy me drinking a lonely beer..haha..i find myself kinda pathetic though...anyway...whats new...? hmm...i bought this korean drama series...actually i first saw it on the cable tv...its about this girl...being betrayed by her very very best friends..who sold away her house and everything in her house...wads more? they took away all the money thats in her bank leaving her alone outside of the country in beijing..haha...funny isnt it? good friends betraying someone who trust them so much..well..thats not all...haha..they sold the house to this very popular movie star whom she actually met before on the airplane to beijing..and now she is back with her house sold to that movie star..and the story continues to show how she pestered the movie star to give her back the house and how she eventually likes the movie star...
all i can say is that...its a very nice story..haha..and the songs especially its really nice...hmmz...i am rather fansinated about korean culture..how polite are they? when seeing elders...no matter who are they..they will greet them in a most humble way..hmmz...and not only that...they are able to express themselves so daringly haha...i like that...hmmz...oh yeah! and how they frown and everything...its so cool...though its kinda stupid...but i feel like micmicking them somtimes..haha...i cant wait to continue watching the drama series..

haha....i am beginning to like my room more and more...but its not till my expectations yet...i will find ways to improve my room to the way i like it...atleast thats somethings which is able to keep me away from the devil "boredom" hmmz...yeah...exams are coming..i have to study tmr morning! i think i will try revising through maths...if not i am really gonna be dead..so dead....hmz....yeah.i think i will look through later on..well..depends on whether i will get tired and sleep or not la...haha...

Ciaoz...

OH YEAH! haha
what do u get with a guy from india and a girl from jewish?!?!

Ans: Hind-jews ;) lolz!

2005-09-10T09:48:00.000+08:00

haha....Ahhh!!! the temptation of chionging is there for me...arh!!...friday and saturday night is very boring now for me! i need some entertainments!! if not the boredom is gonna catch up with me...grrr..0_o'' hmmz...anyway.wooot...wad a day with my dad yesterday...went to bugis to buy shirt! lolz........wad a bargain king ..haha...give the people really no road to run..lolz..haha....anyway bought 2 shirts 1 pants 2 levis boxers...lolz...that day was funny...haha...we went to the second floor of bugis village...there is the sex shop...at that instance..i thought to myself...if people thinks that my dad and me are going there i am gonna laugh my head off...anyway...technos everywhere in bugis..really makes me gianded..lolz...wad i am short of now is a nice shoe...grr..i wanna get some shoes man! 0_o'' after that...my mom and sisters went for facial..sigh...at first i thought i was gonna be facialised...but after that...my sis one...so being the older one...must give way yeah? lol..after tat went to another shopping centre to have foot reflexology! haha...the very first thing i thought of was meiluan...lol...she loved foot reflexology...haha no idea why also...its abit painful and a bit of sensation..have to admit alittle...its really quite refreshing...lolz...for 40 mins i was there letting people servicing my foot.
quite embarassed too...haha my foot smelly ma...whose wont!? anyway good times i had with my family...actually i wanna go chiong yesterday 1 ...no one accompany me..so sad...ahhh! 0_o'' bored bored bored...later going to study at mac...sighz..so good rite? i am disciplined one ok! lolz...nothing much these days....just bored...

CIAOZ!

2005-09-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

bad day.. bad day... really bad day... communication skill common test...its a total buang...sigh..i thought it would be common sense..but i think i was wrong...really wrong...everything was so blardee difficult...damnedz...fuck it ! hmmz.. went to sch at 12pm today... went to the library and saw jia hao and diadora...ok..i admit..i still feel weird seeing her..but its normal i guess...hmmz..anyway...we did make some indirect conversation.haha..anyway everything was funny...and..hmmz...actually i was also abit happy...hmmz...anyway..its just something not really important...hmmz....today was very stagnant...after school...walk through westmall and everything.alone...so bored...everything is moving around me..but i felt nothing...i only felt myself in this mall...hmmz...its just so weird...everything seems oblivious around me...tired...i'm tired...haha...wads love? wads friendship? i think the only thing that is really reliable is kinship...only them, wont leave u alone...
Be happy even if only one care for u...its always better than none..

A

2005-09-06T16:09:00.000+08:00

another day has passed..life's just been a cycle...and this cycle might just continue for another 3 yrs..sigh..i cant find any meanings or happenings in my life...i am just me in my life living alone, for myself..there's nothing for me to fight about.There might be nothing in this world to able to move me...i find myself in the middle of the sea drifting hopelessly, waiting for someone to get hold of me. Just another day in school...doing nothing..wasting my time...next week is my exam , i am trying to get a exam motivation to be able to push me to study and i wont be letting my mind wonder around..sigh...let me get through this exam and i will be happy enough..i wont be asking too much if thats the case...and tomorrows is communication skills common test...-_-" i think i will be skimming through the books...i think another few hrs of hot coffee alone in the room studying..now my room is all i have...scanning through my photos with my brothers... just can say,i really missed those days...but things wont be always nice for u...everyone have their own things to do...and me will be doing nothing...rotting at home after school... i just wanna go back to the time when my brothers ,friends and i are in the school canteen talking...playing volleyball, basketball, all things...i just wanna have that again...sighz...now...i think its just a waste of time..nvm...:) forget it ...accept whats coming for u...sigh...lazy to type...i wanna have my afternoon nap... noonz...

2005-09-03T18:21:00.000+08:00

Its been years since i ever went out with ah foong..hahaz..no lar...i think its months..and finally she called me up yst...hmmz...only when she have no one to find , find me...-_-"well, i dont mind la...my good friend...hehe...hmz...met her up with melvin.cos melvin was with me..anyway...we had lots of fun talking again...and after that she asked me out...we went to ice-skating...! believed that?! haha..anyway before that...i have to go to sch and present my presentation..she came to my school with me..so bored...i hate presentation...its 1005..i dunno how i fare cos he asked 3 questions and i only answered 1...die le la...and our work isnt that good too...sigh..anyway...i wanted to accompany my ah foong...and there we went to Jurong east and ice-skate..haha...i couldnt believe that too..cos all i was thinking was to accompany her..haha..den when we were about to go in, there are two girls approached us and suggest to go in together to skate so they can skate too with unlimted time..anyway...we told them we werent gonna skate for long, but they wont mind...so not wanting to reject them foong and me agreed...hmmz...went in and changed into skates and there we go! haha..for awhile i was trying to adapt but luckily i skate before so i still can manage alill...haha..while we were in the mood to skate , ah foong did a scaring stunt which shocked me alittle ..lol...she almost Fell...!! haha...i was afraid that she fall too...but..there was nothing i can do...luckily she didnt..haha..after awhile we dont feel like skating anymore....cos we were tired...sigh...wanted to go chiong with her..but the people going i also dunno..so...sigh...forget it then..hmm...after everything...sent her home and now i am here..haha...we took lots of funny shots in my phone too...damnedz..it was funny...haha..
sigh...i'm getting sick of the world...so ....undescribable...(anyhow spell one la) . sick!

2005-08-30T20:33:00.000+08:00

hmmz...finally two days of suffering over..now tmr got 1 more painful 1...its teacher's day tomorrow and yet i am unable to go back to my secondary school to pay my teacher a visit..how pathetic is that?really feel like going back to sch and see my teachers and ...my friends...yeah...wonder how's ms gopal...mdm lock...the H.O.D department teachers..Mrs sia...so many...but i have to stay in sch to revise for my science common test ...wad the fiak!? its so unfair...sigh...if only i studied for my test earlier...maybe i wont be down here whining and everything..haha...anyway...got back home earlier because we manage to bargain with the semestral project teacher to delay our time to present our presentation.anyway..having splitting headaches nowadays...so irritating! grr...hmmz...so sianz...how i wish all the test are able to postpone to next week...or make the tests earlier! sigh...hmmz...today...totally embarassed myself...i wore formal when i dun need to! i only realised when i saw melvin...sigh...anyway..today was boring...real boring...i cant believe in two weeks time i am having exams...so GRRR! good news! i got my 6680 from my dad!! woot! so happy..haha..i hope i wont make lost! ;)
i really feel like going back to sch tmr....hope that i can take out sometime to go...miss all my friends and teacher...;)

2005-08-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

ahhh....i cant take this anymore....everything now is in a total mess....i can hardly breathe now...everything is now cocked up...i dont know what to do anymore...this week is gonna be a very bad week for me...everything is now coming...so many things to do...science common test is coming up...so many stuffs! i really need a organiser to organise my life and everything...now everything is like rojak! presentations...projects...works...common tests...all crumbled up! i cant even see my hands now..POLY LIFE REALLY SUCKS! i hate POLY LIFE!!! Give me back my secondary school life!! stop everything this instance! Stress is accumulating up...everyone doesnt seem to feel the urgency of the things needed to do...just tilapah and go through things...i dont wanna be a regretful idiot again...i can hardly communicate with them...whats wrong?! Does it means going into poly now means everything can be left un-bothered? sometimes, i just feel like walking out of the school and just go into some other schools...i might as well go back secondary sch and repeat everything and go into a better course....why is POLY life so complicated and why is everything now in my life such a fucking mess? everywhere i look around...everything is not in place! pillows, blankets, books, wires, ah! i hate this life..i want a more organise life..i need more time...can give me more time?! i need a lifesaver now...do i have a helping hand? can have a more helpful teamate? a more hardworking friend which can do the things i want together ? i miss my secondary school brothers and sisters... i can hardly do things without them...the people now in my sch isnt helping me at all... i am getting sick and tired...everyday i just wish to get home early...away from that stupid place...stupid fake place...everybody is so hypocritical...
i just wanna sleep through this whole entire month..and wake me up when september ENDS!! ah!! i am hating life like i hate ANDY!

2005-08-26T19:14:00.000+08:00

update update update!!hmmz...quite a few tings happen these few days..but i dunno how to say it out...so i will say things that i remember...yesterday!! meiluan's birthday! haha..we help her to celebrate lor...haha..i bought a small small cake for her wor! dun siao siao...well tried my best to make her happy....den we went to look for siwei...den went to esplanade to meet luan luan friend..well a afro malay guy...he's quite a guy...talent guy...plays piano..guitar...so many musical instrument he can play..rather amazed...and imagine piano...is self-learnt...after that went to watch wedding crasher! hahaha!! its a DAMNED BLOODY FUNNY SHOW!!!its a sure must watch movie! haha....sigh...actually...i dun feel like blogging...but seeing my blog so long not updated must atleast put something...so..yeah...not in my best mood these days...so .ciao~

2005-08-22T00:51:00.000+08:00

Ok...I am now partially tipsy..lolz...nahz! i am not! 2 hrs ago...i was drinking with siwei..haha...its been days since i talked to him...he no free...i dun disturb...haha..sigh...oral presentation was a threatener...damnedz...the only thing teacher said was that..i had my contents and everyhthing there...its just that i am gan-jiong...not much general confidence...lolz...hmmz...well...yesterday..i ate one of the more expensive meal ever...haha...met up with my friend went to eat in INDO-CHINE...damnedz...i hate that place...so bloody expensive..haha..AH!! ARSENAL!! WHY LOSE!!! I HATE ARSENAL LOSING TO CHELSEA FARK FAG! grr...luckily didnt buy...hopeless man!! sigh..anyway..yeah..the drinks there one word...CHOR AHz.hahaha...one stupid long island ice tea..$16 plus....stupid lousy vodka coke...$10 plus..sigh...total spent abt $61...haha..i am gonna save save save man!! die ahz... anyway..it was quite worth it lar...food there not bad...the ambience was nice...with the band playing...i think its a place better for drinking and talking rather then eating...haha...anyway...the past few days were rather boring..and nothing to do...so..its kinda stupid...nothing much...
i still cant the stupid emicake shop...haha..wondering..does it ever exist?! lol...

2005-08-19T06:27:00.000+08:00

Today's the day where i will be embarassed once again through stammering...talking nonsense...talking fast like a machine gun...wanna noe why? because, i am having a presentation today..ah!!! i just dun like talking to a crowd...but luckily today is just presenting to my group..with only 23 people...i cant imagine if i was to be forced to present for a crowd with 100 over people...i will definately froze on the stage and sure go gabraa-ing...sigh...why Communication skills must have such a exercise! sigh...but what have to be done, have to be done...and today i am gonna discuss with the group is Martial Arts. haha...A topic which might interests guys quite alot.................but they thing is..even though it is interesting..i dun know how to present! sigh...i am feeling low in confidence...i have a feeling i am sure gonna have a stammer and i will definately talk fast like a Machine gun..God!! please watch over me! let me atleast pass the presentation with whats suppose to be done like..hmmz...
i think i am too excited or nervous about the presentation because when i can wake up at 7 i actually woke up at 6!! ah!! wasted one hour of beauty sleep...this is how afraid i am ....sigh...i just dun like presentations..they sucks...i wanna sleep the whole day...if only i am a natural born presentor...hmmz...sigh...okok...signing off already....

Gonez

2005-08-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

First time ever! A rookie like me played billard for the first time...haha..the only table ball game i played was pool...but this time round , i played billard with my sch friends...the feeling was great when u scored the points..the feeling of the ball going into the pocket was like woo! haha...hmm...that was after sch at 10am when we went to ang mo kio centre and play...we bored at that moment and decided to go there to play den go home..haha...damnedz...in school i really feel restless and listless...everyday have to put up a front , its beginning to be exhausting...i dont really like to be in school...facing all the people there...i missed the secondary school life...hmmz...i really do...

After reaching home...watched naruto again...but man i felt tired ! and slept from 4 plus to 7 plus..and now i am tired again..wonder wads happening to my body...hmmz...

its been so long...ever since i felt the real me coming out...its been long ever since i am really happy... the only time that i felt the happiest in my life were then..when i am still.... sigh...nvm..forget it...saying all these again are a bit pointless...

Tomorrow's another day faking and studying in agony...the only time i can rest is in the holidays! 1 more month!!!

-GoNeZ-

2005-08-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

Its been time and time again that watching naruto always cheered me up...Everytime when i felt unfair about stuffs...bored...depressed...or maybe...even sad...watching naruto always cheered me up...everything about it...the musics...the story...the quotes...everything! And this time...i watched the episodes where Neji Vs Naruto. The will to change Fate...Everytime Human always complained that life are predestined...everything is fate...Fate is controlling us and we are living by fate...everything was planned in the beginning..the amount of money u earn...the amount of food u eat...the things u wanted the most...everything was planned from the beginning...and people just keep on complaining when they dont get the things they wanted and said everything were predestined...
If you dont even want to fight against fate...dont even want to change the things that u felt is planned...fight for the things u want...earned for the things u really love...everything will be meaningless and it will always seemed to be predestined for you..I always believed that one should try their best and be peserverance for anything they want...Give all the their best shot when they find something worth while and value alot to them...But if everyone thinks that everything cant be changed...everything would be dull and everything will seem to be so unfair..

Which is why...everytime when i see that chapter about Naruto's and Neji's fight, i would always be inspired and wanted to do something for myself...give my best shot in the things i want ...change everything for the better...and i will feel better and relived that everything are still in your hands...
some may feel that everything i am trying to say is bullshit and craps...but have they thought what if they could actually fight for the things they wanted? and try to make a happy ending for themselves? I believe tat everything depends on one's self...

One should be positive about whatever they do...they should always think of the brighter side and this way...Hope and Faith will only grow...and one will feel happier and more confident of one self...therefore, stop complaining that all is already planned from the beginning when one is bored...Fight for the things you love...Fight for the things that you feel is right...And try to make everything in your life a happy one..! :)

but!haha...i could understand if sometimes one will have PMS and Low Confidence Level is One's self..haha! so TRY !! ;)

Today's Song : Lifehouse - You And Me

2005-08-15T21:56:00.000+08:00

Have u ever felt like u have never been looked up upon? and everyone is treating u like trash? thats wad i felt sometimes...its like no matter how much i tried change myself..and wanting people to acknowledge that i am a changed person...they still take the lousy side of me as the image of me...i cant keep up with this anymore...everything is not coming out right...sometimes...my head just keep on spinning...asking myself..why? cant i prove myself that i am a newly changed person anymore?anyway...like i tried to tell myself that i am a new person...no longer that old Me...i'm a new me...and i will continue to try my best to let everyone noe that...i'm no longer that no use Eugene no more...i will persist and perservere....be more determined when people boo-ed me...tease me... i want people to know that..no matter how much the pour cold water on me...i am no longer a soft guy that walk around with his hands and shoulder shrugged...The transformation of the Eugene legacy...starts now and will continue on...!
=)

sometimes when u listen to a song...the lyrics...the music...do u sometimes imagine a scenrio where the song really suits ur feelings and the things u do...lets just take for example...a love song...the song is suppose to be a song where the couples were holding each other hands and walking down the beach and that person is u?
another example..when listening to a very hyper song...or a rock song like lickin park...do u sometimes imagine urself being very strong in spirits and imagining urself fighting against the bad people who is trying to harm ur loved ones?haha...what i am trying to say is that...Songs is something that can be used to express one's feelings..haha..so if u cant express urself properly...try using a song..! :)

Today...i got back my Electrical Principle common test !! woOt!! i got A BABY!!! (B) happy!! 2 Bs for this 1st year common test!! hoping that i wont fail any test this semester!! haha...really happy and thankful that god watched over me! tomorrow's Maths common test though not much confidence...i just hope that i could pass it!! all the best in the maths test tmr! sigh...so boring today...didnt really felt like going to school..but on the account of wanting to get back my electrical principle result...forced my draggy and reluctant legs to YIO CHU KANG...now thinking back...i am rather stupid , fancy choosing NYP as my sch...but no choice..that school offer me a better course...sob....sianz!!

Today's Song That Expresses My Feelings Now Is : Jordan Knight - I Could Never Take The Place Of Your Man.

2005-08-14T23:11:00.000+08:00

Today is another BORING DAY!!! GOSH!!! How am i Gonna survive without siwei by my side and him going to NS?! damnedz...no more companion for me...i am gonna be so bored !
Yesterday...i bet on Liverpool!! sigh...they really upset and disappoint me....how could they not win against middlesbrough?!!? ah!!! its a total INSULT! Ah!!! i am so sad...lost ten dollars just like that..but today...ARSENAL!!! WON!!! hahah!! Henry!! and PERSIE!! woOT! TwO ThUmBs UP!!
Today, went to xiaoying house and rot again...den after that went to eat roasted chicken rice...yesh..it was nice...but it gave me diaster!! haha..after everything..met up with siwei and laiping...3 musketeers played soccer and ate with my family...haha..siwei and laiping were like so paiseh...should have taken their photos down..but as for me...i couldnt eat...had a servere stomachache suddenly....no idea why...didnt eat my breakfast and went to my aunt house to BOMB IRAQ...haha...damnedz...for awhile there in the toilet..i thought i was about to faint..it was really really...painful...and my head was giddy ah!! wanted to rest but i also wanna talk with my brothers...so forced myself there to siwei house and talked for about 1 hr plus...haha laughing at everything we had done before...everything was memorable...so pleasant ...hmmz...and now...i am feeling blardee hungry!! grr....but i dun dare to eat...damnedz...

HUNGRY I AM!!! SICK I AM!! STOMACH PAIN!!!! stupid body

2005-08-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

Howdy....hmmz....cant seem to be able to access my blog properly..anyway...finally finish today...such a long and tiring day...i seem to be half asleep the whole entire day...luckily, my computer programming lecture was reduced to one hour...ha...thats was the best consolation...
hmmz...nothing much happened today...all i noe was that i am very lethargic and tired...all i want was to get home early and rest...hmmz...ha...i was given a small present from god...i was really thankful...really....i was...although it was nothing to him...but to me...it was ...i am very grateful...thats all i can say...its like once in a blue moon that i would receive such a pleasant present from god...its not like i am blaming him! haha...i am really really thankful...and rather happy...and tmr...i will be going to YISHUN just to do my project at 11am...so sianz...projects...presentations...blabla...all coming on me now..i am gonna be suffocating soon...gonna be super duper stress the next few weeks....God, please watch over me... :)

2005-08-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

You ask me if I love you and I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you on what you say or do
I'm only just beginning to see the real you
And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer, still trapped within my truths
A hesitant prize fighter still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you and drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through and hold you endlessly
At times I understand you and I know how hard you've tried
I've watch while love commands you
and I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters, still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister, but then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I dietill we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

This is one nice old song that u guys should go and download when u are free....hmmz....its introduced by someone...hmmz...anyway apart from that...i quite like that song alot..hmmz

Today...haha..something miraculous happened! I Passed my Analogue Electronics with a B!!! Am i blessed!!!??? i thought i would fail that paper as i have not much confidence in it..and when today the teacher said out the grades...i am damendz shock!! Thank you GoD!!! Thank you for blessing me!! i am so lucky to be blessed like this...hmmz...well...nothing much today too..just rather tired...and almost slept the whole day...just now met up with siwei for dinner...den we played pool..haha...so fun..beginning to get the catch of playing pool..will be playing that more often..gonna train back the skills..haha...so its rather boring for now..unable to meet up with gang...i miss them alot...all of them...hope to have more outings with them..anyway..tmr will be a more boring day...hope to be able to do someting useful after that blardee long day in sch!
i wanna play basketball!! arh!!!

2005-08-10T00:30:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Singapore!!! Hip Hip Hooray!!! Damnedz...Everyone were so patriotic today...today...The Gang Squadron went out!!! WooT!!! Was It FUN!!Besides celebrating National day...we AlSO celebrate xinyi's Advance birthday...haha...went to give her a small suprise in her house...well....a known suprise to be exact..haha...the funny part comes in...well...we were suppose to give her a small suprise...so our existance in her house should be kept unknown and oblivious to the surrounding..but...the funniest thing was her grandpa called out for her saying..."Xinyi Ah...Ni De Peng You Lai Le...(Your friends are here!)" hahaha.....i was like...oh my god..haha..uncle! u are not suppose to do that!! well..after that..we were like hmmz...i think its over...haha...adding fuel to fire...her mom also did the same thing as her grandpa..haha..and thats it...everything was exposed...haha...she came out seeing us at her house , she was like huh?! haha..wad are u all doing?! haha...so we celebrated birthday for her and do all the standard procedures...haha...taking photos...cutting cakes...everything..haha..then..her elder sis came along..haha..u know what?! she is a NARUTO-FAN!! wooT!! finally another female naruto-fan is discovered! hahaha..she asked me if i've seen 145 ...i said..of cos! i am a naruto-fan myself..haha...even though she brought the first few episode of the naruto series...it never fails to interest me in watching it again..haha..being attached to the movie, i was not really paying attention to the people around me..haha..anyway...

After everything...MARINA SOUTH CARNIVAL!!
haha....went to explore parts and bits of the carnival(even though i explored with siwei already..but nvm!) haha...we saw the sports cars showcasing their skills in turning and drifting ...DAMNEDZ...i was really inspired to be a racer for awhile...it was so damned cool!! i cant take my eyes away from all the cars...Subaru...Evo...Rx-7....what u else u have?! name it..u have..haha...after that the cars...the games in the army range! haha..we played all the gun games!! haha...one is very similar to the one using oil paints and shooting the opponents but instead of oil paints..we use laser..aha...quite hard!..hmz...

Main mission of the game was to grab the flag and return to base..haha...its meiluan, cindy and me up against siyun, xinyi,anita and a scottish guy we got to know today..haha...at first i was thinking..die ahz..they have a british army guy with them...his aiming is gonna be very good..haha..but well...using normal feelings to play with them..haha..i played like those real S.W.A.T team people..going fast and furious against the other opposing team..haha..i managed to shoot two shots at siyun! haha..but never got her..aww...anyway...seeing no one running for the flag...i PICK UP my courage and run to get the flag and ran back to base...YEAH!!! i won!!! woooT!!! haha...so happy!! haha...

After that went to play a another shooting game...well...that was lame...so not gonna say much about it...after that we walked around...we the watch dog! haha..very zhai lor...haha..i am really amazed by how the dog actually listen to their master's command...if only my dog is that obedient..haha...we went to the camo station! haah...got our face CAMO-ed! haha..woot!! haha...siwei and me got out whole face camo-ed..haha..we looked so garang.....but only at first..haha..after that i sweat easily and my face felt watery , unable to take the irritations of the water dripping all over my face...siwei and me went to wash up..haha....wasted rite..?! yeah...i noe...i noe..its my fault..haha...

Then...its time for CELEBRATIONS!!! WOOOT!! THE CLIMAX FOR THE DAY!!
Everyone was getting ready for the celebrations..bought tibits...good...got all goodie-bags...haha...den its time for the performances! Cheers! and Most importantly...FIREWORKS!! DAMNEDZ...They are really pretty and beautiful...i loved the fireworks out of the whole celebrations...and..the all the planes that they show cased during the whole march..ah!!! i am so tempted to go into the army..haha... it reminds me of the movie "stealth". haha

After that...we went home and now...writing this at 1.03 am...yawnz..i am tired..and my contact lens are not out yet! gr..troublesome..haha..but too bad i am hiao..haha...LOVE my GANG!! HEART ALL OF THEM!!!

2005-08-08T19:29:00.000+08:00

hmmz...well...haven been updating my blog for quite sometime..hmz...haha..well some fun things happen this few days...
yesterday....siwei and me went to marina south to explore around the area..haha..damnedz the place is big...i wonder how the people there have to set the things up..well....there are lots of things in the carnival..showcasing all the army stuffs...and some funfair...for the childrens to play...in one word...the whole thing was awesome...hmm...but one thing u guys have to aware...if u guys are going for the carnival..dun wear black or dark colours...and try to wear 3/4 shorts...haha...if not...u are gonna be a sweating pig...haha...we saw all the army ,navy and civil defence ...damnedz...was it inspirational...everything is making me feel so patriotic...and imagine its gonna be national day in a few days...haha...oh one more...when i was buying some soveniurs at some stalls..i and the person who were selling siwei and me things were talking about some things about the army...like the badges are hard to get and why?! because only commandos are able to get ...and why are some S.O.F members are not able to say out their identities...everything is like so WOW! i wanna be like those S.O.F Squads...which stands for...Special Operation Force...just only by hearing the name is already very "garang" haha...and those army guys are like so blardee fit...0_o" so inspired by them..haha..
After that...we got ourself some navy's tatoo...Guard Tatoos...especially the guard tatoo ....its so damned cool..with just the word GUARDS is like i am so proud of it already...haha...if only there is the word COMMANDO on my hand..i will be over the mooN!!

just cant wait till tomorrow...and while we are celebrating..something special is gonna happen too..hah...as for today....NOTHING HAPPEN...JUST ANOTHER BORING DAY...so.....Its boring..haha

thats all guys...try to be happy with life...;)

2005-08-05T23:12:00.000+08:00

Under Depression Period...Please read only when u are able to accept nonsense from me..if not please refrain from reading..because i am not in right frame of mind typing.

life has never been too good for me...atleast thats wad i thought...Either in studies...families...love life...friends...all haven been too good...feeling so mixed...so regretful...everyone thinks that i am in a very good life...with good family...parents that care...friends that are there for me...doing great in poly...everyone thinks so...but infact..i have not been doing too well lately with life.

Poly life isnt as great as u might think...its a more tougher challenge for me to face...new obstacles..new style of living...friends there arent that close..still unable to trust them fully...everyone is wearing a mask there to sch...atleast thats how i feel...u are unable to know them inside out...and now..exams are round the corner...life's even more stressful...i am still unable to catch up with anything...its always been a chore even going to sch..everyone's happy going to school...going there to learn a course they like..going there to play with their friends during cca...but me? its always been a routine to sch...6 am wake up..brush up...6.30 go down and take a bus then mrt to sch...after sch..go home..rot...till night...then sleep...then go to sch... i really find no meaning doing this all the time..

Friends...ha...i dunno what to say...maybe..i dun really know wad are true friends and wad is the real meaning behind this word "brother"...like what my mom always used to say to me...friends are always there to eat the fruits with u...but when the fruits dont grow..and the fruits turn bad...they wont be there helping u to clear away the bad fruits..and usually thats when u are always alone...everytime my mom says this to me..i dont wish to listen to her..i wanted to believe that she was wrong...but whenever i really sit down and listen and think about that...i find that..she was right..she wasnt wrong...though..there are really some good friends..in this world...but maybe atleast i noe that in my life..maybe there isnt.. its true that i have my good brothers..and maybe they can be relied on...but i guess from now onwards i will be independent and believe more in myself...although to me...this word "brother" meant alot to me.. i think it only exist in the ancient centuries..where people in china really have good friends to rely on...sigh...maybe right now i am not in my right mind typing all these..i guess i cant admit but to say that..one must be intelligent and strong to be able to survive in this wilderness..

Family...ha...great isnt it? just got "beaten" up by dad...dont wish to say about it...too embarassing..all i can say is..

Life is not too great or meaningful for me...

Under Depression period...Please read only when u dun mind nonsense from me

2005-08-04T23:10:00.000+08:00

HipHip! HOORAY!!! HipHip!! HORRAY!!!!! Finally Over! its finally over!!! COmmon test is over!! Today was really a heartwarming day..haha..today's paper...computer programming..so tired i am...haha...but its not that tough...the paper can be done...but as for yesterday's paper...its CANNOT MAKE IT!...sob sob...i cant do anithing for analogue electronics...felt so useless...sighz...

Today nothing much...same routine, same thing...but i went to the dentist!
EeeE EeEr...i dun like dentist ...dey look awfully scary with the equipments..using needle like metals to poke ur teeth and drill ur teeth...eew..i felt so painful...but this time..its not really that bad..went to a dental clinic in gombak..saw a girl there...quite young...quite cute..haha..so shy sia i...and rather embarassed...i was there opening my mouth so wide and she was dere looking and helping me put the sucker(the tube that suck ur saliva out of ur mouth) in my mouth...wiping the water that were sprinkled out..haha...felt a small sense of happiness there ...haha..so funny..was rather uncomfortable there for the first few mins...but as things goes by...i lost the scary feeling..but was hoping for things to be finish...haha...after everything...was my mother's turn...i am able to see the dentist helping her cleaning and polishing her teeth...hey u think dentist's earnings are little?! u are so wrong man...dey earn 100 plus within 1 hr..wad do u think?! for mine is as ex as $90 both polishing and filling the holes...darn..si be ho tan...haha

anyway..running tomorrow with siwei...hoping to trim the fats in my body! grr!

PS: Dear Eeling-jiejie..dun say i never talk about u...
i have a pretty cousin living in bukitbatok blk 257.. she is so hot that even the kettle lost to her in tempreture. she is so sexy that even the trees around her block are able to block her.haha..most imptly she is so caring that she is the best cousin anyone could ever asked for! :)

2005-08-02T20:05:00.000+08:00

ugrh...common test 2 TODAY!...its so tiring...i hate tests! test test test! grr!...so irritating and annoying...they always come in big numbers...and i had 2 already...2 more to go..sigh...its so tiring..i hate tests! gr...luckily today's exam its Electrical Principles...i know how to do...if not..i sure cry in vain..but...i still have careless mistakes..which makes no difference at all...arh....!! sucks!! and now..have to study for analogue electronics...god! i hate them!!

Today..something quite unusal happened..Xiaoying called me in the morning! haha..my good old friend...we chat from bukit batok mrt to yio chu kang mrt...luckily got her to accompany me..if not i would have wasted my time there doing nothing ...though i was revising abit for my electrical princples test..heh..so we chatted quite alot about our lifes and decided to meet up for more ..haha..anyway that was what after the test..lolz..so after the test...phew~ one less burden..so met her up with sihui..we had macdonalds den we went up to her house.. she actually had the MASTERBED room!! god! how good life..haha..den in her house...she took out her photos and let us see..haha..so many photos..some were memorable..haha..some were cute....haha hmmz...funny thing about her is..she have a book on looks which can tell a person's personailty and life..everything was quite interesting and yet scary..becos..the book tells if a person gonna have a good life ahead or live up to how old...haha..well...i dun wish to know when i would die or how..but i wish to pass away in a very peaceful and nice way..haha...CHOI! not now yeah?! i wanna live till old age..haha! luckily most of the things in the book about me were good...so nothing to worry about but something to be happy about..haha..after went back home and now~...so bored...studying analogue electronics..it kills! dun understand a single bobo ...god please help me!! i wanna pass my test!! pls!!

Amen!

2005-07-31T19:41:00.000+08:00

Happy Advance Birthday to my brother [ Ho Lai Ping ] !!
Today..everyone really enjoyed themselves today...went to brother's house to give him a suprised. erm...well, supposed to be a suprise..but due to some unseen circumstances...haha..i dont think he wasnt suprised by us..haha..hmm..we had his mother's cooperation and sneaked into his house today! With anita's help we managed to get him out of the house..haha..man! we acted like some ninja-cum-swat team..lolz...we hid and run , trying to avoid being seen by Laiping..haha..though it was just a few mins..but quite funny..after that in his house..prepared the cake, hid the presents and lots of stuffs...especially the forfeit! lolz..i'm not gonna leave it out online.. =P
After that...went to causeway point to catch a movie...hmmz....we went to watch red-candy. its funny now for me and siwei instead of getting spooked by the movie.haha...we have the first hand information while the others suffers in the movie..haha..the few girls...well...i dont dare to say if they are watching movie or more of covering their eyes..lolz..everyone enjoyed themselves today...and i did too..

PS : Meiluan...If reading..I apologise for what i said earlier today...Sorry..
PS : Happy birthday once again brother!

2005-07-29T22:40:00.000+08:00

oH mY gOd!! i am so good today...been a very good boy today...woke up at 7.45 and brush up to go study !! arent i good today?!
haha...haven been a good boy lately..sianz...so boring all days..but i know that atleast i did study today...luckily with zhenzhen's teachings i can atleast study a maths..if not, its gonna be a gone case...sighz...so tired now...eyes closing..brain shutting...i am gonna be a dead body with no soul within mins! ah!!...
wonder if only humans no need to rest no need to sleep...i bet everyday would be play and no time wasted on sleeping!!
we are actually sleeping half of our life away!! try calculating!! its near there! ah...have to use time wisely..if not by the time , time flies away...u wont even notice...lolz
i cant find anything to amuse me haha..aint life boring?! lolz

printf(" Life's So Dull!!"); // Display to god!

2005-07-28T12:54:00.000+08:00

now...Guess where am i...hahaha....i am at Laiping's house blogging right now...sigh...its been so many things happening nowadays..and frustrations just keep on growing..like never ending waterfall...atleast i am being entertained by brother now...we talked all night yesterday , MAN! like girls are we?lol ..anyway...we played games and talked till 4 plus i tihnk...and i couldnt take it anymore and i knock off..unlike that crazy piece of shit...never get tired and keep on going and going..haha...he played till 7 plus from wat i heard...lolz...its so naggy everytime i blogged...

Its so good being with ur bros and sis cos they are close then friends...haha...i happy to have them as my bros...!

yawnz...boring..tired...Yawnz~

2005-07-26T11:43:00.000+08:00

Yeah...YooHoo!! And Once Again i'm Here writing all the bullshits that has been happening in my life..haha...yesterday went out with siwei..but before that..roselind came my house, i helped her abit in her d&t work and we watched a very touching and saddening korean movie.."a moment to remember" its about this girl she is suffering from alzhemier's and she will soon forget everything den die of mentally first follow by physically...she will forget who is her loved ones..forget how to use the phone..how to cook..and even forget how to urine lost total control over her bladder...lastly..she will even forget herself...then her husband will try his very best to spend her last few moments of her life before she die off...its very saddening...roselind cried till very jialarrt..haha..but i couldnt..lolz...although its very touching..but i think i am used to the type of feelings..lolz...
and anway...after that i met up with siwei and bought his stufs and something special for someone..lolz..den we went to buy my GUILDWARS!! haaha farking ex...damnedz.. den we went for a ghost movie..darnz...freaking scray..u wanna noe abt a few details? read siwei's blog.. i dont wanna remember the scary scenes of it..lolz..and now'...i am going to play GW again..lolz..gones~

2005-07-24T22:23:00.000+08:00

Urgh!! i just dun understand wads wrong with my brother and me! like all sibilings! they have fights and quarrels...but i dun seem to understand my good brother animore..like all brothers i had..we can be as close as good blood brothers..but after that..we will be as far as strangers...just cant understand wads wrong with me and my world..maybe i am always suited to be a loner which is why..up till now maybe i cant even find a good close brother...or maybe its me who is expecting too much from them?..sigh maybe...its time i shld be independent...i cant always rely on people around me..as they wont be always there for me to rely on..in this world...the way to survival is always u being the strongest , being the cleverest, being the cunniest... i have to admit that...sometimes...trust no one really the case...well...these feelings do come and go..and i noe that i dun like such feelings..its really disgusting for a hot head emotional guy like me...0_O'"
well...just finsih chatting with "darling"Aka Meiluan(sis) ...its funny once how we talk..i felt like we went back to the own secondary school days..like how we would chat for 1 hr or more..haa..really miss those days..cant deny...but everyone have to get on with life...leaving unnecessaty feelings behind and face new stuffs and face new feelings...i hate this..i hate to move on..i wanna stay this way..damnedz....i do whine like a girl..sharks...i hate it...FARK THIS TIME THING! i hate time keep on moving without stopping for anyone...
Life do sucks..

2005-07-22T22:32:00.000+08:00

grr!! idiotic siwei!! got GIRLFRIEND DONT WaNT BROTHER...THAT BIG BABA! anyway...nothing much happen these days...so bored and tired...anyway was really doing the hell about c programming these 2 days. fark man! i missing " ; " also can make u check till ur eyes koyak sia!! sigh...i am still so bored and unmotivated..but atleast i got study..and i am sick..once again...coughing with flu...darnz...feel so bladee unwell..lolz..
And i am once again crazy over anime!! especially NARUTO! and BLEACH! haha...its so good living a animated life..everything is to unrealistic...full of imagination and most of the time , there would be happy ending! thats wad i love about it most...unlike the real cruel and unrealistic world that i am living in now..all have to know how to be contented..and once bad luck is on ur side...u will continue to be unlucky like shit!
anyway , its the starting of my study break! Wooh! 3 cheers for 1 weeek of happy sleeping in the morning! Bah! 3 boos for 1 week of studying like hell...cos after that its the common test...30% of all the semester result! sucky isnt?! so..its best to study real hard like cow in order to go to year 2..sianz...i am bored..this sucks..lolz..
So lonely here....No friends..No one to care for me..No one to talk to me..THIS SUCKS!! stupid siwei!!

Oh yah!! Last but not least!!
PS : bro!!(laiping!) Happy advance birthday!! well..i dunno whether u will see it anot..but anyway, ALL THE BEST!! hope all ur wishes come true! ~brothers~

2005-07-18T22:20:00.000+08:00

Another day have passed...I still cant find the motivation, the groove to make myself go on and do my things..my mind is still continued to fill in with many unnecessary stuffs...i still cant make a breakthrough...its just a sudden feeling, i miss my gang of friends...Siwei(bro),Meiluan(sis),Laiping(bro),cindy(sis),peiqin(bro), honglee(bro)..and all those who are close to me...i really miss the good old days we have in secondary school...its really so true that once youth is gone..no matter how u try to get it back u still cant feel the same feelings u wont had before...as for me..its my secondary sch life..i miss dem so much...feeling rather sad that now all of them are going their seperate ways...really afraid that one day we all will really be seperated and no chance to meet up again..i miss the times we go to sentosa and play like hell...i miss the days we go to siwei house to tok cock till midnight...i miss the days we played basketball with just one phone call and everyone will come..i really really miss those days...i really dun wan all these to go away...

PS: Brothers...Sisters....please stay in contact ya? i dun wanna lose all of u..( too precious to lose)

Die ah...am i being too emotional? but atleast that was really from the bottom of my heart..i miss my friends...and...nvm...;)

Brother sze is going to army...gonna miss that big blardee baba... gonna miss the time we had on the rooftop drinking..

Laiping , as usual MIA till dunno go where....COME BACK IDIOT!

Honglee, always dead with laiping..

peiqin, happily ever after with his new life..

meiluan, complaining over and over... u noe wad..

cindy, making movies of the next titanic...

arh........feeling lost and empty! fcuk! i am gone!

2005-07-18T00:10:00.000+08:00

The person I love Is not My Lover,
Every Part Of Her Heart Belong To Someone Else.
She's So Happy, But Its So Cruel.
Making Me Loving And Hating her,
Why Is Her Love So Deep ?!

The Person I love Is Not My Lover,
From Their Eyes , I Can See Its Impossible Between Us.
Everytime i heart her saying "we"
Reminds Me The Mocking Of Their Everylasting Love.

That is a part of the chorus translated in English..A song which i rather like ..I dont know why i find that song so nice...but the feeling of lost really sucks. How i wish i can be Happy once more.
everytime i see couples holding hand in hand, walking down the street. I ask myself...when is it going to be me?
Haha! I give up! its not going to be me walking with anyone down the streets! haha..i am no one..not like some handsome hunks with their babes~ i am a Ordinary Eugene which no girls fancy no guys look upon! haha..;) how Negative of me..well..i am tired..lolz..

sch sucks...Tmr will be having a 1 min 30 secs presentation during Personal Development..Topic? Creative Products! Farking Hell! How am i gonna find one.!? Luckily..i got one already...argh!!..

Going through the worst days of my life!

2005-07-17T01:24:00.000+08:00

Today was ROCKING!!! Went out with siwei and meiluan...lolz! guess where?! A place Eugene wont possibly go! haha...CAnt guess right?! K-box! haha...today went to lili's side K-box! lolz...Lucky Thing we had discount! =P haha..i cant believe i really sang the whole lungs out of me...haha...if it was the normal me, i bet i wont dare to even pick up the mic..but funny thing is today..I pick up the Mic and sang as if i was the only singer..haha...anyway..meiluan and siwei sang and had fun also! haha...Aiseh sia! today siwei and meiluan sang a duet !!History is gonna repeat itself! just like wad happen to erm..hahaa and cindy! haha...anyway just kidding!! haha...we really had fun today sia...sang lots of songs! both English and chinese..haha..i believe that other people can hear us singing too! cos we were singing so damned blardee loud...actually its me that is singing damned blardee loud..lolz..i'm a Beginnner in singing.and i suck! so ...have to understand a little..lolz..after that..we went to heeren to see siwei buy his Ripcurl sock if i am not wrong..FOR $11+ he bought that sock! i cant believe it man!...for $15 i can buy 3 socks from giodarno..and its so comfy! haha..anyway...we went back home after that...which left me and siwei! the gay bros...MAN! i cant believe it man..today we went to see a gay movie! -_-"" haha..."wet dream 2" a korean movie..its quite funny but rather lame too...lolz...its ending its like....sigh...what the hell..lolz...anyway since i am talking about singing...

Intro u guys 1 song.. Jordan Chan - Wo ai de ren ! haha! its nice! have been looking for that song for so long finally found it! haha! ;) u guys enjoy that song! DOWNLOAD IT! dun waste anymore time ! ;)

2005-07-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

sometimes you know that whatever you do , it will always be futile..and however you try to persist and work on it..it will never come out right..its like doing the impossible..but why are there always some bunch of people who are always trying to go against the impossible and try to turn the table around?
i dont know whether to call this stupid or silly...actually knowing that whatever they do are always useless and nothing will come out of it..but yet they are always trying with all their might to either get the truth or the things they want to hand..either through unscrupulous ways or underhand ways..
but seriously...sometimes i do really admire their perserverance and courage for doing something like that..its not so simple trying to be determine to do something or to keep the feeling there so as to continue going after somethings rather futile..its very tiring to do something like that..going against nature i guess..and its quite true...usually bad or tragic endings will come into place, but good endings do happen too..and i am always amazed and stunned by such things..to be exact i am envious of those people who perservere and get the things they want...maybe its me who is always giving up and going for new things..i guess u call that wishy-washy..i dont want that..i am always the one losing out and gaining nothing but heartaches...
i am really envious of those people who are having happy endings..but i think those always come true in fairy tale stories...The Cause and Feelings for them to always do the things they want and fight for it really really inspire me ...take one anime for example..though its childish...Naruto.. the will to fight for the things he believed and to turn away from all negative thoughts...i really wish i could be like him...but must all who have such mentality suffer a bad start? naruto is a orphan and everyone despised him..and because of these makes him stronger..must that be the only part the cause a person to be enlightened? must he really learn from his fall and then taste the suffering before being enlightened?
actually i have no idea what i have writing either...its rather lame and stupid because it has no head nor ending...but the thing that is coming into my mind is..should one go against the impossible if he/she really wants the things they want? go out stretched for it? without any hesitation? ...but is that being to rash or careless? i dont know ..but everytime i thought of something deep or troublesome..i will always have all the negative thoughts circling my mind..haha..a rather negative guy i am , i can say..lolz..

ok..enough of all the deep thoughts...today is bored. siwei really broke my heart today..i dont wanna go into details..because it will be very embarassing and funny for you guys to noe...so...haha..dont ask me or him...ok? simple favour to ask of u guys.haha

PS: Siwei, try saying things out...a knuckle to ur teeth is a sure thing! ;) hahaha

2005-07-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

haha!! its been so long ever since i blog again...hmmz..well..the reason is rather simple and easy..i am lazy..lolz...anyway ..time to update u guys on wad happen...well..nothing happen much these few days..went to siwei side to help him sell some miserable goreng pisang..and in return get teased for being extra there...wad a good brother he is rite? lolz..and yeah! he started a new girl besides dawn now..haha not bad..this time is dunno wad siti rite? tats dumb..lolz..having sex at 10 and giving birth at 11..lolz..lame..its time to think of the year!
anyway..ahaha..something miraculous happen today! guess who asked me out?! haha...its the Ms tanned, Lili! haha..was shocked to receive her sms to ask me out...lolz..although i am not the first , atleast the second...haha and the first guy..haha..went to shop with her around orchard,i like her nanny sia..haha..help her take things and everything..lol! den after that we went to have swensen..aha...Lili is becoming more CLASS! haha...Upper-class people of singapore ! lolz..haha...actually wanted to catch a movie..but was too late and i got sch tmr..boring and she is working tmr..so dont wanna disturb her .lolz..and yah! we took photos! haha...alot of fun and spastic shots! ahhaha...all the pic is spoiled by me!! aaha...but got 1 not bad 1..haha!! first time sia..ms Goh lili asked me out..haha! ;) next time go out with u again! ;)
miss ya~

time to sleep! i am tired..nitex

2005-07-08T22:19:00.000+08:00

Today's "youfu" Final Episode...its a very nice drama series..yup..its my sudden feelings again..i still would like to say that ignorant is bliss...seeing youfu having so little to worry , living in his own world with some good friends and acknowledging people who care and loves him...the way u see him...he feels contented...he dont have those selfish and greedy thinkings...to get to know a person like him( if there is) i would really want to know...well..i think the0.01% of singapore population would have a person like youfu....or maybe not at all...and like how all scriptwriters would write...a happy ending for him...i feel that he deserve it..and this makes the people watching the show warm..i believe they can feel that small sense of warmth in their heart when they know Youfu and Ah mei are finally together after so long..well..does it means that perserverence and determination do prevail? i dare not say..its a case by case scenerio..lolz..everyone would like to have a happy ending but its how they have the ending...
everytime i ask myself..am i happy? most of the time, i will feel the blues slowly emerging out of my heart...and the only time when i feel contented is when i am with my family eating..haha...in all..Kinship is still the most impt! sigh...really need someone to pour my feelings out to! haha! wish me luck in finding my mary jane! (stealing from Khoi's name! ) lolz

nitez..i am tired..*yawnz*

2005-07-06T14:06:00.000+08:00

its a sudden thought that i thought to myself that what happen if a person has lost its moral values...whats that person thinking? what will he do? what can he do? while in the train today, i wondered my mind off to some possible scenerios that could happen when a person lost its own moral values.. if that person wants something so badly and yet he couldnt get it, what's he gonna do? To me, the only thing i can think of is steal? rob? snatch? most probably using those forceful techniques to obtain their things that they wanted..But lets just say what if a person wants another but he could have it. Scary thoughts pop up suddenly to my head...Rape? Kidnapped? Murder? its rather scary to see a person losing their control and doing things without thinking...and i wont want such things happen to the people i love..given me a chance, if i ever a had a chance in killing a person who completely lost their mind and not repentful at all... i wont hesitate a single second..but all these are just thoughts...haha..sometimes its funny when one is totally bored to the extent of daydreaming..lolz..
well, wads there for today to say? lolz oh ya! another day of early release..but this time its much more earlier...i went home at 11...lolz...i just feel that i'd rather waste time on other places then that cold stupid school. haha..anyway went back home and quickly grab a thing to bite..i'm hungry! lolz..and later at 3..i am gonna have tuition with zhenzhen (teacher) again..hope today its something progressive and productive..lolz..wont wanna waste her time and my time..but later going back to sch with peiqin for awhile ...to take he Ó lvl cert..*yawnz* i am tired...gosh..i'm such a pig..lolz...
anyway who cares.! lolz..GOnez

2005-07-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

Sometimes... Life is just such isn't it? Its all about urself..about you leading your life, your way. NO one would really care much or less.You live ur own way of style, Or maybe the only few people that really might care are ur parents.
Sometimes, i would feel that its you in your own world..no one cares , no one bothers...its so cold and lonely..like a bird in its cage, being fed and waiting to die..i still cant find some real happiness in life, although i am living a decent good life..with a good parents and no worries to worry...well..its not like i am not grateful or anything..but i still feel the empty gap in between..
Every adult would say..there are more grate things and more important things waiting for you to do..Right.i agree..the more important things are to get urself a good qualification, a status at work..a good career..but even if you had all , would all that satisfy u? haha..sometimes i would just feel that Man are greedy..they will never get contented..its like who wont ask for more? given u a chance would rather be rich or richer? can answer that? haha..i dont know how i am feeling sometimes..its just like some other routines , every soldier have to follow in army..how is one able to attain true happiness or real meaning of contented..? is it when you feel that you have nothing else to have then thats when you feel contented in life?
maybe different people have different mindsets..i feel that i want to accomplish rather lots of things in life..but i am not capable of it..
Every now and then, i feel more wrath and frustrations , i have no idea whats gone into me..just wish that someone can settle me down..make me calm myself..but till then..i think i will still continue be a incomplete person . ugrh...i'm greedy!
*yawnz*..well..all greedy person gets tired too...i'm tired..going to sleep..night to all whoever reading.

2005-07-04T08:18:00.000+08:00

Haha!! Guden Morgan Singapore!! Just a Craze around bukit batok! lolz.. i went jogging with my bro(siwei) earlier today..its like 5.45 am! haha...early isn't it?! lolz..though tired but i still wanted to jog..lol..dragged my tired stoned body out of the cave and wash up a little..and went to meet bro. For the first time!! haha..i ran to bukit batok without feeling breathless at all..lolz...though its a short run..but i have not run in a few months! and its scary! lolz..anyway..enjoyed the jog..but unfortunate things happen! urgh...just when i feel the "feel" for running..it rained! damnedz! haha..its not my day! or is it god is hinting me to take a rest and let my leg stop for awhile...anyway....we went to a shelter in the park...alot of aunties and uncles there too...Including a very good life Dog...man...i think the dog is leading a better life den a human.. the master takes good care of it ! even gave it raincoat to protect it from the rain! i cant stop thinking how lame is it and wad is the world coming to? dog gets treated for more better than a man! hmmz...well..like what they say, a dog is a man best friend i suppose..lolz..anyway..its monday again..like usual..the starting of the boring and tiring day of the week..sigh..hope today's gonna be a better day and nothing is gonna happen stupidly at sch! ;)

_ciaoz_

2005-07-02T18:48:00.000+08:00

sigh...feeling totally down with absolutely no chance for being happy for the day now...i dont understand why would i actually do that...i should have stick everything to myself..not letting anyone know...sigh...i am stupid!! ugrh....saying what got things must say it out...whats the use? there's no point in doing that...u only will cause unnecessary trouble to yourself...sigh..i have no idea how am i going back to sch on monday after what had happen..i wish to dig into a sand cave and stuck my head inside for the rest of my life...arh! -_-''
anyway, went to roselind house today...taught her somethings about physics and made her memorise the physics formulae..lolz..i was quite hard on her..but thats the way in teaching her something..have to let her know the importance...anyway after that went to find siwei with meiluan along..haha...went there to eat ba chor mee pok...haha and siwei's specialty Goreng Pisang..lolz..its delicious ...guys, next time when u are free be sure to go there ya? after that went straight back home and den went for a jog...now having muscles cramps...darnz...its been a long time since i ran..grr...lousy body i am having cant do anything good...0_o...
Life's so boring...please bring in some sunshine or moonlight! anyone! anybody!

2005-06-30T21:03:00.000+08:00

The few weekly and daily rountine that i am going through right now... getting qutie used and tired to the poly life...and its really boring..no doubts about it...hmm..anyway nothing special happen much today , maybe the early release or going home might be something new... well...today went home at 12pm...rather early this week...quite happy also..no need to stuck in the school...hmmz...anyway, today i was really embarassed to the max...well, dont wanna talk too much about it..but i was damned red...well, will leave the details...lolz...anyway, straight away went to take the mrt back to the wild wild west~ lolz..my home sweet town...Oh yah! i remembered something...the great cindy PS me again..haha..i dont think its anything new...sigh...how come always i kena PS one..tmd..lolz..its NOTHING GREAT! lolz...anyway now watching the superstar...haha..not bad sia the people singing there...maybe singapore got HOPE already, for singers to be born ...haha...anyway its people fighting for their dreams...sigh...talking about dreams....i dreamt of some sad things , well...hope i wont get the dream again.... hmmz....tmr its friday!! time to party!!! pI!! pi!! PI!! pi!! pI!!! lolz...craze fark...lolz...so sianz...life is once again getting dark and boring...God, please light up my life!

2005-06-29T16:03:00.000+08:00

Hmmz....the big boss have undergo a "big major serious"operation in his whole entire life..haha...he went to have his wisdom tooth taken out.. bet now he look like a pig.haha...the other time my cousin went to have her wisdom tooth taken out, she look like a big bun attached to her face..lolz...i think big boss is going through hell right now..hahas..Bro..Jia you ya?
anyway today was as per usual...the only thing was i am seriously damnedz tired...almost slept throughout the lecture..haha..feeling very guilty now sia..cos i noe nothing..not even a single thing...today went to do e-quizzes for my A maths...seriously, looking at the question i dun even know what the question wants nor what is the first step. sigh..so boring...thought that poly life's gonna be fun with exciting things..but neither did i expect it to be so tiring and boring.. with no friends in there i feel so left out.. think my friends have to slowly realise what type of person i am..hmm...if only i did better in my ó lvls...i maybe can go to SP to find laiping..i am really like a lone ranger in NYP, maybe its time God wants me to be independent and do everything myselg without any help.. hmmz...haha..guess its gonna be a hard time..hmm..oh yah...today there is thi s very Guai lan guy , damned....feeel like giving him two tight slap across the face...well, i thought i lost my foolscape paper , so i went back to the place to look for it. but little did i didnt know that i borrowed my foolscape paper to the frankeinstine...anyway..i went forward and asked the guy if he saw a foolscape paper around his place...he then give me a very guai lan answer, HUH? WHAT FOOLSCAPE PAPER? DONT HAVE AH...mutherfocker... his face is already asking for some beatings and now with his attitude that makes it worse...i dun understand, maybe he thinks that he is so damned cool..but actually he looks like crap..skinny like bamboo..face like shit. =S though i didnt say mine was better but atleast he sucks to me.. =p
anyway, today went all the way to heeren to get siwei's specs but as they were moving shop , siwei's specs is still not done..damnedz...wasted a trip there...anyway I'm a GOOD bro.. i dun complain! =P lol.. sigh..later got tuition with zhenzhen at westmall mac...phew...luckily she agreed to come to my side, cos i am really damned tired..*zhen, if u are reading this thanks*

Lastly wanna say A MATHS SUCKS TO THE CORE!!
AND
PS : Siwei, get well soon k? i bring u go eat hagendas. =) ( bring only hor, never say treat ah! )
CIndy, well....u did it again... =) Ps me more yah ? ....getting used to it alrdy...lolz

GONE

2005-06-27T23:33:00.000+08:00

Hahas..just had the fastest pick-ups ever..haha..Siwei was at my house awhile ago..but i decided to pick up my altered jeans from my aunt house which was quite near his house.. so i took his "sun fong che(car)"...anyway reach my aunt house in a jiffy.. after that ran all the way up to her house. damendz...the stupid soil outside her house were a nuiscance..stepped on all the soil..grr..anyway luckily my aunt and my beloved cousin were not asleep .. quickly took the jeans and borrowed another 5 bucks to take a cab home..=P felt so guilty taking money from them, but i need to go home early to sleep and finish writing the blog..

Anyway, today was boring...monday really makes me feel very reluctant to go to school...hmz...having all the tutorials and everything..hmz...haha...after Personal developement today..something happened that made my heart pounded at 100km/h . i saw someone in my lecture taking the same lift as me! it was her! haha..no idea why my heart was pounding so fast...anyway..when i taking the same lift , i tried peeping at her...its like as if my eyes was magnet to her . hmmz..tomorrow can see her again during lecture..hope i wont always peep at her and cant concentrate to study...hmmz...tomorrow's planning is still rather boring...Hmm..maybe meeting CINDY up after school...well..she said she was bored, so i asked her to look for me..=) yeah la..i am bored also la..makes no difference wad rite..?

hmmz...suddenly , i feel that what has happened to me? why am i always looking out for girls..-_-" am i really that desprate? ugrh...no i am not! think i just need someone to hold me down and to make me feel normal again...grr...do i sounded desprate? well..i dun care and i am not...please dun think i am a flirt k? i am not. i am just a guy who needs someone to care and to love too! hey..i am human..no girl nor god...i need feeelings! lolz..aiyah...its 11.45 now...time to sleep weirdos!

PS : Siwei...its time to change ur Format of ur blogging~lolz..=P
: Siwei...tomorrow maybe going to find u..
: Whoever is reading this..please tag my tagboard.
hmmm..why? cos i am bored.lolz..thats why..=)

2005-06-26T23:31:00.000+08:00

*Yawnz*....Very tired now...today went out rather early...met up with siwei at 12pm...and meiluan at 12.30pm..hahas...that darlin of mine so blur....told her meet at 12.10pm she said i say meet up at 12.40pm..haha...cute silly girl...anyway she rushed down to meet siwei and i at the arcade in westmall..after that we went all the way to wisma atria to buy some stuffs...well..its jeans in giodarno...quite lame actually...can go to westmall and get the same jeans but instead we went all the way to wisma..its stupid.. anyway after that we went to heeren..dere we saw two mad bitches screaming and shouting away...aiyai...i dun understand wad happen to them..they rather have some obession with self-inlficted wounds...dey would use the pen knives to cut themselves..and wads the most horrifying thing was the girl said.."see , i taught u how to cut urself without any pain" damnedz...are they some mad ass with simply no brains? wad pleasure they get out of cutting themselves?anway..aside from those mad bitches... we went to find cindy after everything..she ended her service at 4 plus and we said that we will meet her at 4.30pm. haha...well..she called me, asked us where are we...and i ...lied to her..haha..saying that we are already at Jurong point waiting for her..and our legs are tired from all the waiting ..haha..and she quickly came all the way down from her church...well..she said that she quarrelled with her church people..dunno whether its true anot..but i shall not probe that much...den when we are at bukit batok in the bus 174...she called and asked where are u? i was laughing away...saying we are still in the and we are reaching there already.haha..i pity her at the moment..anyway leaving all the lame details.. we met each other at westmall instead..we went to see the movie "A lot like love" , its a real nice comedy romantic show...haha..its about these couple have been together on and off for 7 years, then in the end they were together..well...maybe this is wad u called fate, i supposed..hmm...after that we went our seperate ways and siwei came to my house..we ordered pizza!!! YUM YUM! haha..my sis and her friends are at my house too.and guess wad...alvin and ruizhi are too at my house..so its kinda like a big nothing party at my house..haha..we had fun la..but my sis and claudia , these two lazy but one cute pig asked the guys to help them with their work! ugrh...its like how long ever since i touch a secondary sch work? luckily i still have some knowledge in english..( all thanks to Ms Gopal! ) able to help them abit.. and now writing all these is making me tired...haha..*Yawnz* ....i am sleeping...tomorrow got sch....so lame...but its ok..haha..new friends~ =)

2005-06-26T01:21:00.000+08:00

Today's Lili's birthday! Happy Birthday Babe!!! hahaz...well..think she is still working just now...haha..just came back from cennileisure, heeren . haha...Siwei, Meiluan , cindy and me went to give Lili a small suprise at her workplace( K-box ) . haha...everyone bought her a present except me...feel so bad but atleast i got her a small cake to help her lighten up her day..she work from yesterday till now lehx...without sleeping~! Pity her , sorry babe~ hope wad we did, did make u happy abit..hahas...haha..today really happen lots of things...firstly, i quarelled with my dad over some matter. Then i was so angry that i went back home straight after i lighted my dad's car. because i was planning to help siwei sell goreng pisang but after that big quarrel i went straight home..but i did something real bad today..like i was saying i was in a very bad mood after the quarrel with my dad , so i decided to take the taxi home..so as i was waiting for the taxi..there is a guy behind me tried to snatch away my taxi...i was so pissed off that i shouted loudly at him saying that i got here first..everyone was looking and i bet that guy was definately embarassed....after that i just got into the taxi and went straight home. hahas...i think that taxi driver that sent me home was also in a bad mood..because he was driving extremely fast..wadsmore..there was a car infront of us, the car gave a sudden break almost had a car accident then..luckily the uncle breaked fast enough if not a car accident is sure bound to happen. the uncle den gave a very LOUD horn..and scolded vulgarities at the driver...Guess wad?! the driver was actually a lady! haha..and the driver didnt gave her any face..kept horning at her even after we had overtake her. so after that i went back home and rest awhile , after calming down, i didnt wanna have a awkwardness in the house and i dun wanna create unhappiness between me and my dad, i apologised to him. and everything was settled then.. in the evening i went to meet siwei and meiluan! haha...guess wad!! Meiluan changed dramatically!! she really changed into a sweet gentle angle from a wild one..haha..she sounded soo sweet and gentle, almost melt my heart man! hahahaha...anyway its a good thing . And then..cindy..she ....wad u expect? continue to tease me of course....its like a standard procedure right now..she will always do tat..hahas...anway something real embarasing happen after that..we went to TCC to have a small dessert, then i saw a very familiar face and remembered oh! she is from NYP, a very petite cute girl...hah...i den say she very cute den wanted to know her..although i wanna know her but its just a joke! CINDY the great started everything again..haha..she told her i wanted to know her ..i was so embarassed man! but wad she replied was.."sorry, i am attached" i was so SO EMBARASSED! thanks siwei! u this arsehole brother..haha! i dunno how to go back to school anymore, darnz! haha..ugh..heck! i dun care anyway! .....as if.....hmmz..anyway now back at home tired..and sleepy..yawnz! i am turning in! gd night! ;)

Initial D!

2005-06-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

Today was a blast!!
Straight away after school, went to meet my sister, claudia,ameliy,ruizhi and alvin for INITIAL D! WOoot The show was the show i was waiting for ! haha...very excited about watching the movie today..so after when i met them..all of them took thier own sweet time buying and talking to one another..haha, somehow make me rather pissed off..haha..cos i very excited to watch the movie ma..lols..den i rush and rush them, finally went into the cinema...sat down dere for 20 mins doing nothing but watching the commercials...stupid rite? haha..but i also happy atleast i noe i am not late.=P
The show was damned blardee nice lor..too bad siwei and laiping not here to watch movie...sigh...talking about siwei..dont understand wad happen to him...give me attitude...nothing much to say also..anyway i have been watching alot of movie this week already...darnz...feel so broke now..but! tmr watching a lot like love with siwei! hahaha...using the golden village FREE PASS! hahaha...shiok ah..lolz..
anyway today very tired....tmr will be worse...9am - 6pm.... its gonna be hell!..sob sob...lols
anyway all the best for tomorrow yeah? =)

Teasing and happy day yesterday, new hope or disappointment today?

2005-06-21T22:38:00.000+08:00

hahaha...Yesterday, whole day was bored until 7.30pm...haha sch was as per usual super boring b plus the extreme lame teacher who will tell boring jokes.hahas! after that was the gathering of the Ex-es of bukitviewans and bukitviewans..Who was there? Siyun, siyun's cousin,xinyi,anita,laiping,siwei,cindy,cindy's boyfriend,honglee and lastly me. everyone was teasing about me and my WINDPIPE! hahas..its so darnz lame lor..and all started by a girl named CINDY YEO WAN LING! grr, everyone just keep going on and on..non-stop like nothing..haha , but its was ok lar....to create the commotion i dun mind sacrificing myself for evryone's sake.haha! but everyone enjoyed the dinner and talk all the craps like as if the whole coffee shop was ours! haha! was fun! i hope there would be more of these..but everyone's busy with their work and everything so..its not so good lor..sigh..hmm..yup best thing is still able to meet up with my bros..especially siwei (big boss) and laiping (man missing in action). haha...

Today, the thing that makes me quite exicited was to meet up with someone that i long time not seen already. haha, very happy to meet that person also...so the whole day at sch i was looking forward to meet that person lor..haha! cant concentrate well also, today we went to heeren and cennileisure , bought a very nice shirt today and its that person picked for me one..haha! tomorrow i am gonna wear it to sch. its a white INDEPENDENT SHIRT! very style sia..haha... after tat i persuade that person...finally able to watch movie...although its a movie that i seen before , but i dont mind..its Mrs and Mr Smith...haha! luckily she enjoyed that movie if not i sure guilty.The cinema was packed with crazy idiots who stand there to watch their initial D events..

hmm....Overall,i am happy today being with that person, i dont know if that person would enjoy but i hope that person will...after that , went back home wanted to send that person home.. anyway that person said no need..sigh..but now talking to that person , quarrelling and arguing about some stupid matter haha....just hope that these can go on like this...

signing off~

Today's a happy day

2005-06-19T22:32:00.000+08:00

Today is really a happy day...Firstly..its father's day... i had lots of fun at grandpa house today..everyone gathered at my grandpa house to celebrate father's day. well..was quite a sequence. Everyone had their lunch then the cake. haha..funny thing today, every father had a red packet today. haha..den today i wanted money from dad. no money to go out ma..haha..den he took out 20 out of the red packet and gave it to me, while he got 18..haha...so touched.haha!
anyway today , finally! met up with my bro(laiping), one asshole..aha M.I.A for so long and now..finally able to grab hold of him...today was real happy.. we the three brothers out in orchard road walking around and stuffs..its like once every rainbow moon. hmms....was quite happy..hahas...today siwei was on a shopping spree man! he went to adidas shop, look at some clothes that he like..den take , try , and buy! its like so unlike him..haha..den went to walk around heeren. haha..we the three musketeers talked everything under the sun today man..its like so rare..haha..and now...we guys agreed to meet more often. man! haha..but guys..i am no gay...its just that i take brothers quite highly. hmm...anyway...while updating everyone and everyone updating me.. suddenly two girls pop out of no where, well..they are the princesses of someone..haha...Xinyi and Anita. haha..den we as a group talked about our sch life and stuffs...so funny...its a rare thing seeing such a situation.lol.
after that, the girls have to go home and say hi mom and dad i'm back..haha..then the 3 musketeers went to watch movie..haha..we went to watch Boyfriend blood type b..haha!! quite lame for 3 guys to watch a love movie! hahaha..i am so afraid people might take us as three gays..lol!! haha...anyway wad i can say about the movie was...it was hillarious and touching..its about the guy with blood type b and they were saying about guys with blood b are hard to get along and they are jerks..assholes...very stucked up..lol! well..i have no idea whether its true anot.and i dun quite give a damned about all those to..but one thing that came to me was.. i rather miss the feeling that i like a girl very much again...i dont know but i felt a small happiness when i saw the happy ending in the end..well..the guy in the show is quite smart also to thought of such way to say sorry..lol..i am not gonna tell u guys hows it was like..u wanna know? haha GO SEE IT FOR URSELF..lol..after that i felt quite moody...and i began to realise have i really like a girl that much that i am willing to give her my everything? sigh..and the girl that came to my mind was the girl that left me becos we didnt have trust at that point...its all life! ...have to get out of it.. came to realise a way of life .. why think negative to make urself feel so depressed? think about the bright side of life...there will always be a day when u can be happy again! haha..thats wad i always hope about..really..haha..but everytime when i think i can with someone again.. she will run away..haha..am i pest or wad? lolz..anyway..i dont give a damned anymore..its just me as a individual..lol! who cares anyway! haha..anyway the bottom line.. i am happy today to be with my brothers! :)

Brothership rules man! ;)

well, gonna bathe now...wash away all negative thoughts i am havin now!lol..its my form of therapy i guess..lol..ciaoz...

Stucked at home , sleeping!

2005-06-18T21:22:00.000+08:00

Haha...have been at home doing nothing...so bored...haha...today quite funny....when i woked up today. My cousin msned me. haha..at first was nothing until something that poked my curiosity.she said my idol did something CRAZY and was RA! DARNZ!!! she said she got the clip..but didnt want to send it to me , saying i was underaged..like..what the hell lor!! 18 ALREADY! Stupid Kuku! anyway..pestering her for 15 mins but to no avail. Argh! forget abt it! who wanna see its own idol naked anyway! hmmz...(o.0) (0.o) -_-" .....haha...anway...today was quite a waste of time...really... slept the whole day again... am i a pig OR WAD! ...hmm..sigh....just now went to talked to my dad..i say i wanna eat pizza but he said no! ...haha..wad is that.wad am i talking about..haha..going too stressed..haha...well..not writing much anymore , yawnz...tired..
~gone~

My New Hair And FInally Back In School

2005-06-15T21:09:00.000+08:00

Hahas...back at blogging...
Yesterday , Roselind came all the way from Yishun to my house just to see me, was touched that someone would actually do that for me. hehe...Thnx! My sister, Ruizhi , roselind and me , we spent half of day the trying to watch the house of wax in my room but stupid cd...can watch a thing.hahas so gave up the idea in the end. So we watched the Monster - in - law. hahas a real funny show, quite hypocritical.. well..girls~ hahas! den after that sent rose to the westmall taxi stand and saw her going home. den Ruizhi and i went to take a passport photosize picture for my personal data for NYP , if not my pitiful chairman would be so stressed because of me unable to hand up a good job. hahas..she looked so stressed when asking me for the personal data the previous time. her looks was like so funny. hahas... after that went to CUT HAIR with ruizhi and cindy.. haha...that noisy cute bitch. hahas.. No offence girl! lols.. after the 1st hair cut. i tot was like a typical coffee boy ah beng. den my father say he hate that hairstyle , so wad to do ? went back to the apartment saloon to get another hair cut... now my hair is like so Short ahaha! ;P

Today, Went back tó sch with Mabel..the feeling was weird though..its like i missed two days of sch and today was like monday.Met up with my friend (melvin) a noisy Dick..hah! then he began to update me on the past two days , den i realised that my other friend Guoquan had lost his Mp3 player yesterday . felt so sorry for him.. because of a little mis-communication between a few blur cocks.. den he lost it. haha! quite funny though when melvin told me the whole thing. we went laughing and walking all the way to sch. WHICH...left mabel abit left out ahah..den i began to chat with her alittle..to make her feel comfortable abit..;) den today lessons was so boring and as usual hypnosisical making me falling asleep... hahs! den my other friend saw my hairstyle..he asked me " hey, wad happen to ur hairstlye? u got some depression or some Big breakups ah?" yeah right..haha...its just plain hot and my hair was like a helmet ..so thick..so i decided to have a hair cut! hahah..funny guy..well...today was as per usual..nothing interesting...Just feeling a bit bad that i flew ruizhi , peiqin and alvin's aeroplane.. so bros!
anyway...now with my Best bro, siwei with me accompaying me..sad thing is i can only enjoy a few more times with him before he go army..gonna miss that bastard.. haha..well, time to chilL~ with him bye guys! hahas!! ( dun think dirty u bitches and bastards! haha! )

GONE~

Still sick...darnz..feel so darn awful and terrible

2005-06-13T19:45:00.000+08:00

well...today my health is getting worse ...at first its just bronchritis with cold..but now...another fever .... sigh...its a triple combo..head is spinning like crazy...so..for the whole entire day..u can say i am just sleeping away...argh!...i ain't ok! so sad..hahas..no one taking care of me..just me alone..hahs..argh..can write any longer. feel terrible!.

Signing out~!

Cinema at Jurong Point finally!

2005-06-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

Today , Seeing the doctor really scare me a little..lols...i thought my cough is juz some ordinary cough..but didnt expect it to be that serious.haha..the doctor comfirmed that i was down with a mild bronchitis not sure if its the correct spelling but sound roughly the same..its a contraction in the windpipe of lungs , making me feel like coughing when i am breathing..hahs..in another words...its quite similar to asthma..hahs..happy lor..No exercise, no soccer, no running about..so i think i am jus gonna be a good boy and stay at home and have plenty of rest. After seeing the doctor..mm..GUESS who i saw?! or u wanna say who saw me!! hahs! its my English teacher!! Ms Gopal! quite shocked to be seeing her in the nearby places in bukit batok..she and her students were out in between these two coffeshop selling somethings..Its some kind of enterprenureship thingy going on within the school and the community centre..and so happen that Ms Gopal was the teacher-in-charge. hahs...well , my cousin and i asked her out for lunch and we sit and chat about schools and life..hahs..! so funny the conversation , especially topics over my cousins (Naughty times) hahs...we also told Ms Gopal , the some places that students will be hiding at smoking and doing stupid things..haha..and she was quite amazed! ahahs.hahs..And me complaining about the China people in my class...darnz...its one whole big bunch of Cheena people there man..
After eating , met up wif siwei to go to clmenti to make flour for his work..after that we went to my house and i did him a big favour...REMEMBER TO THANK ME BRO!..hahs..den meiluan smsed him asking us to watch movie..though feeling sick..i was very excited cos its been a real long time ever since i watched a movie..hahs...den we met up wif cindy too..today..she is real crappy...even crappier than usual..hahs..den i saw 1 bite mark on her hand..haha! den i began teasing her about that FUNNY bitemark on her hand..lols..anyway she didnt even know how she got that bite mark herself...and Today..we watched MR SMITH.MRS SMITH..haha! 1 darnz funny and action packed movie..worth watching..haha..but ending was rather exaggerated.hah..swinging their hands shooting from left to right...up and down..machiam doing Singapore workout like that..hahas...wads the best part is all the bad guys died..except that couple..super duper lame..hahs..
soon after that we went back home..and now writing..*yawnz* so tired...haven take my medicine yet..well..gonna take now! ciaoz! will be back for more! ;)

From now on a new beginning a new starting..

2005-06-12T10:34:00.000+08:00

hahs..actually feel like deleting my older postings..i want a new beginning , a new starting in my life..but i dont think there is a need for it...hm..cos i feel that if u wan a new beginning u have to accept ur past and not repeat it..hahs..well den...wads there for today? ...darnz...i am still coughing after so long..and its getting worse ...gonna go see the doctor later on wif my cousin..hahs..no money..have to ask her to pay first..den i tihnk later on i will be going out wif siwei, meiluan, alvin, ruizhi to watch movie..hahs..its so long ever since i watched a movie...hope that there isnt some aresholes in the cinemas moving or shouting around like some idiotic monkeys that came out of the zoo..well..in this new blog means its all new for me..think positive!! hahs..hm...a friend of mine went to alaska...darnz...so nice that place...hahs..and i think the furthest i ever went is thailand..hahas! thats pathetic!! sigh..tomorrow got school..and dun feel like going..hahs...well, we will see about that.. hahs..ok den..thats all for now...;)

I will be back! - arnold

Lost and rather confused..

2005-04-22T00:52:00.000+08:00

I have really no idea what i am doing and what to do...i really dont know believing a miracles and perserverance do help..i really want to and i wish to...but sometimes those disappointments makes me feel that its no use..today while playing basketball, she smsed everyone but not me..although its stupid and yes i am jealous, why she would sms other people but not me? i dont understand...though i noe the chances are not high..and she dont like me..but i really wish to try my luck and really hope that my perserverance does pay off..i really do like her alot..i really dont dare to sms her, call her nor make myself noticed to her..i am afraid she will slowly avoid me. i am so scared of rejection, i am so scared to feel that same sad feeling i once felt ...i really hate all these feelings...sigh...i noe its stupid...and i noe people wil say just follow your heart and let nature take its course..i will still continue drawing..and on her birthday give her my best sketch i could give...and i noe wif no talent...hardwork will pay off..i really hope that god dont disappoint me.. well...."jiayou --> myself"

Back..

2005-04-19T22:54:00.000+08:00

back at blogging....well nothing new nor much..thinking of how fragile life can be..haha...saying such things can be stupid but by just watching the show "hello blackjack" mainly talking about this trainee doctor trying to save this two premature babies, twins,both boys. Seeing how hard these two premature babies fight to live really make me feel shamelss and to those who wanted to die or commit suicide..People out there wanting to live in this world so badly yet there are idiots out there because of some small setbacks and want to give up their precious life by commiting suicide. By watching this show makes me feel how lucky am i, able to grow up to be able to quarrel with my parents, tells me how blissful am i and how God loves me. And by knowing how fragile and blissful life can be, the more i feel that one should never live to regret and this makes me feel although with setbacks and disappointments I should never give up what i am fighting for and live for. The people i should be thanking and grateful for are my parents for giving me and letting me live in such a comfortable life that many other people would wish for. And for the things i am fighting for and wishing for i should not give up, wooing after will still be the thing i am fighting for and i will never give up!
Though the first step might be late and with many steps to come along, i finally about the things that sketching a person needs..haha..well, sketch books, pencil, eraser and ruler. now i really need now is a picture of her...happy picture i need ;)
after all that i will start to fight for my wish and dream , although that should not be the only ones...haha. ;P Wish me luck !
Lastly, taking the chance to thank my parents and i am definately sorry for all the trouble and unhappiness i had caused.Love them. (sorry, sounded too much like a girl..too mushy ya? )
ANyway! Signing Off! Miss her!! and my PARENTS.. ;)

Today Stinks

2005-04-13T23:15:00.000+08:00

Its Right , i guess the whole entire blog stinks like hell just like what church said.But i still feel its not the blog that stinks. Its me. Today went to the turf city race, well was happy to see her...but didnt understand why she is kinda ignoring and avoiding me...i think she sense it that i liked her alot..knowing all the awkwardness i think its natrual for her to feel this way. i dont blame her but it still hurt my heart. i really wish that she will be nicer to me. sigh. signing off

Will go or not?

2005-04-13T10:52:00.001+08:00

Today is anita's race ..she will be running in turf city..raelly feell ike going..both want to cheer for her and most importantly wanna go see her..since morning before i woke up i am thinking of whether to go or not..no..not to go or not...am i able to g0 or not . Thinking anyone of them would call me or ask me to go along.. Yesterday smsed her...but no reply..i sometiems dont udnerstand...am i really that irritating or annoying till that people find it difficult to accept the way i am. there are hardly any reason for me to feel positive about life..its so tiring and troublesome. All i ask for is a happy family and a girl i like. thinking of so many things in my mind i can hardly sleep well either. thinking of all ways to make her happy, to make her birthday a best one in her life..but its HARD...planning of such things need really times and organisation..am i able to take up the task? i really hope so...People always say dont do thigns that will make u regret..think thrice and decide what to do and from Naruto's favourite quote " I am Lousy at Giving Up! " Sometimes hearing to what naruto says really make me feel positive again no matter how disappointing the day may be. I believe in Mircale though its so fake but i still believe in it. i wish to believe in it, and i dont want to make myself regret this time. i really like her alot. i really do! i wont! GIVE! UP ! AGAIN!

Will go or not

2005-04-13T10:52:00.000+08:00

Nothing Much, Cyndi I Guess

2005-04-11T00:21:00.000+08:00

Today..woken up by my parents so early in the morning when i had a very tiring day yesterday..nothing to say..played soccer yesterday from 5pm - 9 pm plus ..4 hr plus of playing...though tiring still FUN! had many spectaculuar shot.haha!so...when i went home..i FORGOT to bring my CONTACT LENS! arg! couldnt believe..everything was so rush in the morning..then i meet siwei and peiqin at bukit batok to go to Cyndi autograph session. though boring, but for brother..i dont mind..lol.. so hot i tell u the place..sweating like a water tap.after that went back to siwei's house to change a short and shirt..den went to play street soccer...sucks! this time was sucks...i realised i cant play soccer after eating..but funny thing is SIWEI that idiot can.. hm...weird body he has..-_-''
Now, listening to Mr Lonely - Akon...i miss her alot..looking at my wallpaper . only she caught my eyes...nothing else..miss her so badly..really wish to let her noe...Love her alot..wish that one day she will noe..I wont give a single hope or pecentage of chance i would have..i will be persistant and positive. :)

Tiring Hot, Disappointing Day

2005-04-08T01:03:00.000+08:00

Today was real tiring..haha..woken up by quite a few sms-es. Foong, my good friend asked me out for lunch but i rejected her..cos i was really tired then, feeling so guilty now haha..cos after awhile i found myself awakened and couldnt sleep much further...so i went out to my pc which was on the whole entire night and noticed that brother Sze has Nudged me 2 times..haha...he asked if i wanted to go lunch wif him...at that point of time..a rather hungry me agreed to his request and we met up at mac and ate , and after that we decided to play ball..damnedz him...just finish eating not longer then five mins..he want to go play ball...make my stomach pain like hell..haha..wads there to laugh? stupid..-_-
so we played wif bala which we met at mac, and played till 8 plus night when we started at 3 plus afternoon..damnedz! was it hot today..felt like a roasted pig under the sun running around . ha..then came this china boy..14 yrs old but have a body of a 18 yr old asshole..haha..playing wif him was a really bad idea..1st, he wasnt shy about drinking my 100 plus so many times as if he bought it himself..i mean..i dont know him, he dont know me..fuck, how would i noe if he has aids or not..0.o" ...2nd, the way he play has no creativity at all..everything also follow me..-_- darnz..playing wif him was so boring..as time flies..i grew hostil towards him making every ball a hard kick..but most of the times. ball flew in other directions.=P haha
now typing in my cousin's room when she is bombing iraq and her blk 257 toilet bowl, she will be back ani min...hope tomorrow's gonna be a good day for me..
hope i would have a chance to see her...=)
Signing off~ ciaoz~

The Song I Wish To SIng To You

2005-04-07T08:24:00.000+08:00

All I Have To Give

I don't know what he does to make you crybut I'll be there to make you smileI don't have a fancy carto get to you I'd walk a thousand milesI don't care if he buys you nice thingsDoes his gifts come from the heart - I don't know...But if you were my girlI'd make it so we'd never be apart
But my love is all I have to giveWithout you I don't think I can liveI wish I could give the world to you... butLove is all I have to give(give..)
When you talk(when you talk), does it seem like he's noteven listening to a word you say?That's ok babe, just tell me your problemsI'll try my best to kiss them all AWAY...Does he leave(does he leave) when you need him the most?Does his friends get all your side?Baby please, I'm on my kneespraying for the day that you'll be mine!
To you... Hey girl, I don't want you to cry no more - insideAll the money in the world could never add up to all the loveI have inside...I love you
And I will give it to youAll I can give, all I can giveEverything I have is for youBut my love is all I have to give
But my love is all I have to givewithout you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to youbut love is all I have to give to you

Something funny yet disappointing

2005-04-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

Haha...today like i said earlier..i went out wif siwei, so hot today..sweating away..arg..we took taxi there..thankfully..siwei paid.haha..so we went to mount elizabeth hospital..hmm..if i am not wrong..i was born there..haha! He said that hospital was expensive..hmm, thinking to myself then why u come here!? ha. after that we went to clark quay to look for the stall..DAmnedz...when we reacht here...not longer then 1 hr..it started to rain! darnz..haha..den we went around clark quay..den walk cross TCC , saw this girl..quite pretty..haha..siwei and i go funny.hahah...den siwei and i went there to drink . after the rain stop, we went home...as we were walking home..that girl had finish work..haha...so we talked to her..haha..got her no. haha..-_-...But still.. i was disappointed. cos i know wad i want and was looking for..ARg.darnz..waste 1 day walking around doing nothing..damnedz.. after that went back to bukit batok library to borrow the book on sketching..and now back at home..so bored..need not to say..i would say the same usual thing like before..Yes i miss her..=) ALOT
signing off...night

Nothing Much, Trouble again

2005-04-06T00:22:00.000+08:00

Today...This morning, went out to find my Best brother of all, and yet the one which dont trust nor like me the most.. just feel like i am making a fool out of myself...anyway..today was real fun at first..i meet up wif bro at 11.30am at jurong point to have brunch at long john..haha..guess wad..who i saw? A babe..lolx....a senior of mine.which i admired a long time ago..quite a pleasant suprise for me to see her once again...aniway..after the lunch.we went to walk around jurong point like the past..it really makes me feel happy..( come on..dont think i am gay! I am a Guy who takes friendship and brothership seriously) we went to play arcade..haha..that was real fun..we played this shooting game..very furni...about racing.lolx..hah..dont know how to explain either..haha...after everything...we went back to sch..brother need to look for his wife..while i took a chance to go back to have a look at her...haha..waited for quite a long time..but took the chance to talk to my most respected teacher..Ms Gopal..haha...we chatted for awhile about poly and stuffs...den Siwei came to sch..to look for us..quite angry wif him though..HE IS SUPPOSE TO ACCOMPANY ME TO CLARKE QUAY/BOAT QUAY to look for something impt! Hmph...aniway..after everything...i finally got to see her....SO HAPPY!..i noe its kinda stupid just looking at her makes me happy..hmm..after that..we went to westmall to buy caramel and that furni coffee of hers..I NAMED her drink IDIOT..but INSTEAD! I GOT THAT NAME for MYSELF! ARG!...haha..furni though..after that....si wei, she and me took 176 back home..haha...happily spending time wif her..talking to her...every sec..i was looking at her...after that, i called bro..to talk about something unpleasant which happen..i really dont wish the same thing to happen again..cos i really take our brothership seriously...aniway...good things dont last..so let nature take its course..hmm..dont feel like going back home after that...so went to my COUSIN house..i know its kinda bad for me to disturb them so much..but just dont wish to go home and quarrel wif my family again..it really sucked!....

haiz...now..thniking of the past...i would really sit down and cry...regretting..why would i do something ilke that..really wish i could one day turn back time and undone my mistakes.
Just wanna say i really really love her from the bottom of my heart..

~Chill ouT~

WeLCome

2005-04-04T19:56:00.000+08:00

A New bloG have Started....A series Of Unfortunate Events Happening...WElcomE