I have really no idea what i am doing and what to do...i really dont know believing a miracles and perserverance do help..i really want to and i wish to...but sometimes those disappointments makes me feel that its no use..today while playing basketball, she smsed everyone but not me..although its stupid and yes i am jealous, why she would sms other people but not me? i dont understand...though i noe the chances are not high..and she dont like me..but i really wish to try my luck and really hope that my perserverance does pay off..i really do like her alot..i really dont dare to sms her, call her nor make myself noticed to her..i am afraid she will slowly avoid me. i am so scared of rejection, i am so scared to feel that same sad feeling i once felt ...i really hate all these feelings...sigh...i noe its stupid...and i noe people wil say just follow your heart and let nature take its course..i will still continue drawing..and on her birthday give her my best sketch i could give...and i noe wif no talent...hardwork will pay off..i really hope that god dont disappoint me.. well...."jiayou --> myself"
