Today is anita's race ..she will be running in turf city..raelly feell ike going..both want to cheer for her and most importantly wanna go see her..since morning before i woke up i am thinking of whether to go or not..no..not to go or not...am i able to g0 or not . Thinking anyone of them would call me or ask me to go along.. Yesterday smsed her...but no reply..i sometiems dont udnerstand...am i really that irritating or annoying till that people find it difficult to accept the way i am. there are hardly any reason for me to feel positive about life..its so tiring and troublesome. All i ask for is a happy family and a girl i like. thinking of so many things in my mind i can hardly sleep well either. thinking of all ways to make her happy, to make her birthday a best one in her life..but its HARD...planning of such things need really times and organisation..am i able to take up the task? i really hope so...People always say dont do thigns that will make u regret..think thrice and decide what to do and from Naruto's favourite quote " I am Lousy at Giving Up! " Sometimes hearing to what naruto says really make me feel positive again no matter how disappointing the day may be. I believe in Mircale though its so fake but i still believe in it. i wish to believe in it, and i dont want to make myself regret this time. i really like her alot. i really do! i wont! GIVE! UP ! AGAIN!
