The person I love Is not My Lover,
Every Part Of Her Heart Belong To Someone Else.
She's So Happy, But Its So Cruel.
Making Me Loving And Hating her,
Why Is Her Love So Deep ?!

The Person I love Is Not My Lover,
From Their Eyes , I Can See Its Impossible Between Us.
Everytime i heart her saying "we"
Reminds Me The Mocking Of Their Everylasting Love.


That is a part of the chorus translated in English..A song which i rather like ..I dont know why i find that song so nice...but the feeling of lost really sucks. How i wish i can be Happy once more.
everytime i see couples holding hand in hand, walking down the street. I ask myself...when is it going to be me?
Haha! I give up! its not going to be me walking with anyone down the streets! haha..i am no one..not like some handsome hunks with their babes~ i am a Ordinary Eugene which no girls fancy no guys look upon! haha..;) how Negative of me..well..i am tired..lolz..

sch sucks...Tmr will be having a 1 min 30 secs presentation during Personal Development..Topic? Creative Products! Farking Hell! How am i gonna find one.!? Luckily..i got one already...argh!!..

Going through the worst days of my life!

UnfortunateHappenings back to the past on 12:10 AM

Today was ROCKING!!! Went out with siwei and meiluan...lolz! guess where?! A place Eugene wont possibly go! haha...CAnt guess right?! K-box! haha...today went to lili's side K-box! lolz...Lucky Thing we had discount! =P haha..i cant believe i really sang the whole lungs out of me...haha...if it was the normal me, i bet i wont dare to even pick up the mic..but funny thing is today..I pick up the Mic and sang as if i was the only singer..haha...anyway..meiluan and siwei sang and had fun also! haha...Aiseh sia! today siwei and meiluan sang a duet !!History is gonna repeat itself! just like wad happen to erm..hahaa and cindy! haha...anyway just kidding!! haha...we really had fun today sia...sang lots of songs! both English and chinese..haha..i believe that other people can hear us singing too! cos we were singing so damned blardee loud...actually its me that is singing damned blardee loud..lolz..i'm a Beginnner in singing.and i suck! so ...have to understand a little..lolz..after that..we went to heeren to see siwei buy his Ripcurl sock if i am not wrong..FOR $11+ he bought that sock! i cant believe it man!...for $15 i can buy 3 socks from giodarno..and its so comfy! haha..anyway...we went back home after that...which left me and siwei! the gay bros...MAN! i cant believe it man..today we went to see a gay movie! -_-"" haha..."wet dream 2" a korean movie..its quite funny but rather lame too...lolz...its ending its like....sigh...what the hell..lolz...anyway since i am talking about singing...

Intro u guys 1 song.. Jordan Chan - Wo ai de ren ! haha! its nice! have been looking for that song for so long finally found it! haha! ;) u guys enjoy that song! DOWNLOAD IT! dun waste anymore time ! ;)

UnfortunateHappenings back to the past on 1:24 AM

sometimes you know that whatever you do , it will always be futile..and however you try to persist and work on it..it will never come out right..its like doing the impossible..but why are there always some bunch of people who are always trying to go against the impossible and try to turn the table around?
i dont know whether to call this stupid or silly...actually knowing that whatever they do are always useless and nothing will come out of it..but yet they are always trying with all their might to either get the truth or the things they want to hand..either through unscrupulous ways or underhand ways..
but seriously...sometimes i do really admire their perserverance and courage for doing something like that..its not so simple trying to be determine to do something or to keep the feeling there so as to continue going after somethings rather futile..its very tiring to do something like that..going against nature i guess..and its quite true...usually bad or tragic endings will come into place, but good endings do happen too..and i am always amazed and stunned by such things..to be exact i am envious of those people who perservere and get the things they want...maybe its me who is always giving up and going for new things..i guess u call that wishy-washy..i dont want that..i am always the one losing out and gaining nothing but heartaches...
i am really envious of those people who are having happy endings..but i think those always come true in fairy tale stories...The Cause and Feelings for them to always do the things they want and fight for it really really inspire me ...take one anime for example..though its childish...Naruto.. the will to fight for the things he believed and to turn away from all negative thoughts...i really wish i could be like him...but must all who have such mentality suffer a bad start? naruto is a orphan and everyone despised him..and because of these makes him stronger..must that be the only part the cause a person to be enlightened? must he really learn from his fall and then taste the suffering before being enlightened?
actually i have no idea what i have writing either...its rather lame and stupid because it has no head nor ending...but the thing that is coming into my mind is..should one go against the impossible if he/she really wants the things they want? go out stretched for it? without any hesitation? ...but is that being to rash or careless? i dont know ..but everytime i thought of something deep or troublesome..i will always have all the negative thoughts circling my mind..haha..a rather negative guy i am , i can say..lolz..

ok..enough of all the deep thoughts...today is bored. siwei really broke my heart today..i dont wanna go into details..because it will be very embarassing and funny for you guys to noe...so...haha..dont ask me or him...ok? simple favour to ask of u guys.haha

PS: Siwei, try saying things out...a knuckle to ur teeth is a sure thing! ;) hahaha

UnfortunateHappenings back to the past on 8:36 PM

haha!! its been so long ever since i blog again...hmmz..well..the reason is rather simple and easy..i am lazy..lolz...anyway ..time to update u guys on wad happen...well..nothing happen much these few days..went to siwei side to help him sell some miserable goreng pisang..and in return get teased for being extra there...wad a good brother he is rite? lolz..and yeah! he started a new girl besides dawn now..haha not bad..this time is dunno wad siti rite? tats dumb..lolz..having sex at 10 and giving birth at 11..lolz..lame..its time to think of the year!
anyway..ahaha..something miraculous happen today! guess who asked me out?! haha...its the Ms tanned, Lili! haha..was shocked to receive her sms to ask me out...lolz..although i am not the first , atleast the second...haha and the first guy..haha..went to shop with her around orchard,i like her nanny sia..haha..help her take things and everything..lol! den after that we went to have swensen..aha...Lili is becoming more CLASS! haha...Upper-class people of singapore ! lolz..haha...actually wanted to catch a movie..but was too late and i got sch tmr..boring and she is working tmr..so dont wanna disturb her .lolz..and yah! we took photos! haha...alot of fun and spastic shots! ahhaha...all the pic is spoiled by me!! aaha...but got 1 not bad 1..haha!! first time sia..ms Goh lili asked me out..haha! ;) next time go out with u again! ;)
miss ya~

time to sleep! i am tired..nitex

UnfortunateHappenings back to the past on 11:27 PM

Today's "youfu" Final Episode...its a very nice drama series..yup..its my sudden feelings again..i still would like to say that ignorant is bliss...seeing youfu having so little to worry , living in his own world with some good friends and acknowledging people who care and loves him...the way u see him...he feels contented...he dont have those selfish and greedy thinkings...to get to know a person like him( if there is) i would really want to know...well..i think the0.01% of singapore population would have a person like youfu....or maybe not at all...and like how all scriptwriters would write...a happy ending for him...i feel that he deserve it..and this makes the people watching the show warm..i believe they can feel that small sense of warmth in their heart when they know Youfu and Ah mei are finally together after so long..well..does it means that perserverence and determination do prevail? i dare not say..its a case by case scenerio..lolz..everyone would like to have a happy ending but its how they have the ending...
everytime i ask myself..am i happy? most of the time, i will feel the blues slowly emerging out of my heart...and the only time when i feel contented is when i am with my family eating..haha...in all..Kinship is still the most impt! sigh...really need someone to pour my feelings out to! haha! wish me luck in finding my mary jane! (stealing from Khoi's name! ) lolz

nitez..i am tired..*yawnz*

UnfortunateHappenings back to the past on 10:19 PM

its a sudden thought that i thought to myself that what happen if a person has lost its moral values...whats that person thinking? what will he do? what can he do? while in the train today, i wondered my mind off to some possible scenerios that could happen when a person lost its own moral values.. if that person wants something so badly and yet he couldnt get it, what's he gonna do? To me, the only thing i can think of is steal? rob? snatch? most probably using those forceful techniques to obtain their things that they wanted..But lets just say what if a person wants another but he could have it. Scary thoughts pop up suddenly to my head...Rape? Kidnapped? Murder? its rather scary to see a person losing their control and doing things without thinking...and i wont want such things happen to the people i love..given me a chance, if i ever a had a chance in killing a person who completely lost their mind and not repentful at all... i wont hesitate a single second..but all these are just thoughts...haha..sometimes its funny when one is totally bored to the extent of daydreaming..lolz..
well, wads there for today to say? lolz oh ya! another day of early release..but this time its much more earlier...i went home at 11...lolz...i just feel that i'd rather waste time on other places then that cold stupid school. haha..anyway went back home and quickly grab a thing to bite..i'm hungry! lolz..and later at 3..i am gonna have tuition with zhenzhen (teacher) again..hope today its something progressive and productive..lolz..wont wanna waste her time and my time..but later going back to sch with peiqin for awhile ...to take he Ó lvl cert..*yawnz* i am tired...gosh..i'm such a pig..lolz...
anyway who cares.! lolz..GOnez

UnfortunateHappenings back to the past on 2:06 PM

Sometimes... Life is just such isn't it? Its all about urself..about you leading your life, your way. NO one would really care much or less.You live ur own way of style, Or maybe the only few people that really might care are ur parents.
Sometimes, i would feel that its you in your own world..no one cares , no one bothers...its so cold and lonely..like a bird in its cage, being fed and waiting to die..i still cant find some real happiness in life, although i am living a decent good life..with a good parents and no worries to worry...well..its not like i am not grateful or anything..but i still feel the empty gap in between..
Every adult would say..there are more grate things and more important things waiting for you to do..Right.i agree..the more important things are to get urself a good qualification, a status at work..a good career..but even if you had all , would all that satisfy u? haha..sometimes i would just feel that Man are greedy..they will never get contented..its like who wont ask for more? given u a chance would rather be rich or richer? can answer that? haha..i dont know how i am feeling sometimes..its just like some other routines , every soldier have to follow in army..how is one able to attain true happiness or real meaning of contented..? is it when you feel that you have nothing else to have then thats when you feel contented in life?
maybe different people have different mindsets..i feel that i want to accomplish rather lots of things in life..but i am not capable of it..
Every now and then, i feel more wrath and frustrations , i have no idea whats gone into me..just wish that someone can settle me down..make me calm myself..but till then..i think i will still continue be a incomplete person . ugrh...i'm greedy!
*yawnz*..well..all greedy person gets tired too...i'm tired..going to sleep..night to all whoever reading.

UnfortunateHappenings back to the past on 10:51 PM

Haha!! Guden Morgan Singapore!! Just a Craze around bukit batok! lolz.. i went jogging with my bro(siwei) earlier today..its like 5.45 am! haha...early isn't it?! lolz..though tired but i still wanted to jog..lol..dragged my tired stoned body out of the cave and wash up a little..and went to meet bro. For the first time!! haha..i ran to bukit batok without feeling breathless at all..lolz...though its a short run..but i have not run in a few months! and its scary! lolz..anyway..enjoyed the jog..but unfortunate things happen! urgh...just when i feel the "feel" for running..it rained! damnedz! haha..its not my day! or is it god is hinting me to take a rest and let my leg stop for awhile...anyway....we went to a shelter in the park...alot of aunties and uncles there too...Including a very good life Dog...man...i think the dog is leading a better life den a human.. the master takes good care of it ! even gave it raincoat to protect it from the rain! i cant stop thinking how lame is it and wad is the world coming to? dog gets treated for more better than a man! hmmz...well..like what they say, a dog is a man best friend i suppose..lolz..anyway..its monday again..like usual..the starting of the boring and tiring day of the week..sigh..hope today's gonna be a better day and nothing is gonna happen stupidly at sch! ;)

_ciaoz_

UnfortunateHappenings back to the past on 8:18 AM

sigh...feeling totally down with absolutely no chance for being happy for the day now...i dont understand why would i actually do that...i should have stick everything to myself..not letting anyone know...sigh...i am stupid!! ugrh....saying what got things must say it out...whats the use? there's no point in doing that...u only will cause unnecessary trouble to yourself...sigh..i have no idea how am i going back to sch on monday after what had happen..i wish to dig into a sand cave and stuck my head inside for the rest of my life...arh! -_-''
anyway, went to roselind house today...taught her somethings about physics and made her memorise the physics formulae..lolz..i was quite hard on her..but thats the way in teaching her something..have to let her know the importance...anyway after that went to find siwei with meiluan along..haha...went there to eat ba chor mee pok...haha and siwei's specialty Goreng Pisang..lolz..its delicious ...guys, next time when u are free be sure to go there ya? after that went straight back home and den went for a jog...now having muscles cramps...darnz...its been a long time since i ran..grr...lousy body i am having cant do anything good...0_o...
Life's so boring...please bring in some sunshine or moonlight! anyone! anybody!

UnfortunateHappenings back to the past on 6:48 PM