sometimes you know that whatever you do , it will always be futile..and however you try to persist and work on it..it will never come out right..its like doing the impossible..but why are there always some bunch of people who are always trying to go against the impossible and try to turn the table around?
i dont know whether to call this stupid or silly...actually knowing that whatever they do are always useless and nothing will come out of it..but yet they are always trying with all their might to either get the truth or the things they want to hand..either through unscrupulous ways or underhand ways..
but seriously...sometimes i do really admire their perserverance and courage for doing something like that..its not so simple trying to be determine to do something or to keep the feeling there so as to continue going after somethings rather futile..its very tiring to do something like that..going against nature i guess..and its quite true...usually bad or tragic endings will come into place, but good endings do happen too..and i am always amazed and stunned by such things..to be exact i am envious of those people who perservere and get the things they want...maybe its me who is always giving up and going for new things..i guess u call that wishy-washy..i dont want that..i am always the one losing out and gaining nothing but heartaches...
i am really envious of those people who are having happy endings..but i think those always come true in fairy tale stories...The Cause and Feelings for them to always do the things they want and fight for it really really inspire me ...take one anime for example..though its childish...Naruto.. the will to fight for the things he believed and to turn away from all negative thoughts...i really wish i could be like him...but must all who have such mentality suffer a bad start? naruto is a orphan and everyone despised him..and because of these makes him stronger..must that be the only part the cause a person to be enlightened? must he really learn from his fall and then taste the suffering before being enlightened?
actually i have no idea what i have writing either...its rather lame and stupid because it has no head nor ending...but the thing that is coming into my mind is..should one go against the impossible if he/she really wants the things they want? go out stretched for it? without any hesitation? ...but is that being to rash or careless? i dont know ..but everytime i thought of something deep or troublesome..i will always have all the negative thoughts circling my mind..haha..a rather negative guy i am , i can say..lolz..
ok..enough of all the deep thoughts...today is bored. siwei really broke my heart today..i dont wanna go into details..because it will be very embarassing and funny for you guys to noe...so...haha..dont ask me or him...ok? simple favour to ask of u guys.haha
PS: Siwei, try saying things out...a knuckle to ur teeth is a sure thing! ;) hahaha
