Under Depression Period...Please read only when u are able to accept nonsense from me..if not please refrain from reading..because i am not in right frame of mind typing.life has never been too good for me...atleast thats wad i thought...Either in studies...families...love life...friends...all haven been too good...feeling so mixed...so regretful...everyone thinks that i am in a very good life...with good family...parents that care...friends that are there for me...doing great in poly...everyone thinks so...but infact..i have not been doing too well lately with life.
Poly life isnt as great as u might think...its a more tougher challenge for me to face...new obstacles..new style of living...friends there arent that close..still unable to trust them fully...everyone is wearing a mask there to sch...atleast thats how i feel...u are unable to know them inside out...and now..exams are round the corner...life's even more stressful...i am still unable to catch up with anything...its always been a chore even going to sch..everyone's happy going to school...going there to learn a course they like..going there to play with their friends during cca...but me? its always been a routine to sch...6 am wake up..brush up...6.30 go down and take a bus then mrt to sch...after sch..go home..rot...till night...then sleep...then go to sch... i really find no meaning doing this all the time..
Friends...ha...i dunno what to say...maybe..i dun really know wad are true friends and wad is the real meaning behind this word "brother"...like what my mom always used to say to me...friends are always there to eat the fruits with u...but when the fruits dont grow..and the fruits turn bad...they wont be there helping u to clear away the bad fruits..and usually thats when u are always alone...everytime my mom says this to me..i dont wish to listen to her..i wanted to believe that she was wrong...but whenever i really sit down and listen and think about that...i find that..she was right..she wasnt wrong...though..there are really some good friends..in this world...but maybe atleast i noe that in my life..maybe there isnt.. its true that i have my good brothers..and maybe they can be relied on...but i guess from now onwards i will be independent and believe more in myself...although to me...this word "brother" meant alot to me.. i think it only exist in the ancient centuries..where people in china really have good friends to rely on...sigh...maybe right now i am not in my right mind typing all these..i guess i cant admit but to say that..one must be intelligent and strong to be able to survive in this wilderness..
Family...ha...great isnt it? just got "beaten" up by dad...dont wish to say about it...too embarassing..all i can say is..
Life is not too great or meaningful for me...
Under Depression period...Please read only when u dun mind nonsense from me
